夢 - 沒在意不明白不想理

昨晚睡時躺在床上，閉眼放鬆。先做睡前四步，很快便感覺身體向下沉緊貼著床墊。印象中還在想第二步是甚麼時便睡著了，連在夢中轉清明練習的暗示都還未說。太晚睡太累會比較難練習吧。

夢一：我和八姨表妹去北角道壇拜阿公。我先到，先在拜，她們隨後來，也跟著拜。拜完才想起未買香寶衣包，我便出堂外大廳買，買完又拿回堂內補做。我提醒她們去買香寶衣包，但她們好像沒留意聽見，繼續在拜。

夢二：在看老師的課程錄像。有些同學看了還是做不到或不明白，所以又出了第二套，這套加上堪布的解說。有些同學看了還是不明白，所以又出了第三套，這套加上老師更詳細的講解。到這時同學做筆記和記錄時，圖只顯示老師坐著的身體和手勢，裁走了頭和臉，以免洩露老師的身份和教法。第一套是直接看了聽了直接做，是即時的。第二套多了的練習和過程，跟著做大概兩三年。第三套就要五年的持續練習了。當然老師慈悲，願意做之後的第二第三套，利益更多眾生，但要堅持五年，對於不能從第一和第二套就解脫的眾生也不容易吧。

夢三：新內地女同事跑來跑去，為男光頭老闆做事。她的位就在我的右邊，兩張枱是並排貼著的。這時她坐在位裡，老闆坐在她右邊，在討論著跟學生助學金有關的建議書。我免不了聽見，忍不住用鉛筆在筆記簿上用繁體中文寫上類似，學生和助學金相關必需先取得學生事務處確認。心想還有terms of reference的細節，但就不說那麼複雜那麼多了，反正他們都不理解也不想聽。寫完遞過去給女同事看，卻找了幾本筆記簿逐頁翻都沒找到那頁。算了，我回到自己的工作，做面前的文件。做完把文件放到前面的一叠。其實我枱上的左邊和前邊都是大叠文章，枱太小很擠。

夢 - 夢中清明夢中夢

昨晚睡時躺在床上，閉眼放鬆。先做剛剛完成的閉關教的睡前四步。很快便感覺到地的消融，我只覺知，繼續做，提醒自己對消融覺知就好，不用刻意尋找。然後便睡著了。不久在內在醒來。想起剛才不知做到第三還是第四步就睡著了，便從第三步開始繼續做，然後安住在覺知。這次在地後有覺察到水的消融，然後在內裡看見很光，那就是小母光明嗎。我連忙試著保持覺察這光並安住。不久又睡去，又在內在醒來，我再次回到開放的覺知，這次地和水以外，也有覺知到一刻火的消融。身體好沉好重，但又帶痛。是太覺知身體這粗糙的原素嗎。我試著把覺知轉向心智，身體卻太痛了，又把覺知帶回去。這次我先以身體那痛作對境，不久痛紓緩了，才回到開放的覺知。說是開放，但現在的覺知都是向內的，像沒有了外在的世界。很快又有光，我又看著那光。也許我太在意那光，看得太用力了，該試著只保持覺察安往在光吧。身體也太繃緊了，我試著伸展，身體是能動的，接著又睡正回到內在的覺知。這樣反復睡去醒來覺知看見光好幾次，才睡到早上，從夢中醒來。七時二十幾分，睡了差不多七小時，這算是一覺睡到天光嗎。又閉上眼回想夢，開眼記夢，八時二十幾分。

夢裡，我走在像中環半山的街上。突然下微雨，我走進咖啡店坐下暫避雨。變成展覽，一些珍貴古籍化為影像，一本本從幻彩舞動的光，到漸實在的故事影像。又像是佛道經典，顯現典籍中的佛土仙境。變成是在某中年男人家，他的可愛小男孩姪兒也來了，很喜歡我，我也抱抱他跟他玩。前女同事G也來了，男主人似乎是她的前上司。我們並排坐在梳化說話。她聽見我已經上了解脫道正在修持有點驚訝，像覺得這是很難的事，只有甚少人能做到和持續練習。原來她也上了開心禪，但還未完成所有階次和功課，正停在中間，而她本來也想上解脫道。我不覺漸睡著。夢中發現我一直在夢中看見的男人，正是這裡的男主人，也是我的未婚夫。醒來後，我發覺靜靜的大家都睡著了，我跟G坐在梳化上睡，小孩仰躺在地上睡，枕著小枕頭蓋著小被，其他人包括男主人和把典籍變成影像的男人，則在房裡，都睡著了。我是第一個醒來，男孩這時也睡醒哭鬧，我連忙過去安撫他。他從被裡爬出兩三步，變成小貓還是小倉鼠，我輕摸著他，他張口想咬我，我便由得他咬，他輕咬我的手指一下，便安心靜下再睡，臉上帶著滿足甜睡的微笑。G也醒來了，我連忙告訴她，我剛發現之前說過的夢裡看見的男人，原來正是這裡的男主人。我突然察覺這原來是中老年女教授的實驗，她讓大家睡著放在同一個夢裡，看誰會先醒來，也就是即使醒了，這還是在夢中，是個清明夢實驗。

Haven Of the Silver Violet Flame

Workshop with Edwin.

During the breeze exercise, seeing animated green and blue, the pure, innocent and delightful colours. At the same time, feeling touching, and tears inside. Then seeing a big tree with thick and tall trunk and big crown. It is under the blue sky and white clouds. Such a beautiful day. I think I really don’t know about trees. The word oak comes to mind.

After the water exercise, the water being worked on looks clearer, tastes a bit thicker and nicer, with a very slight touch of lemon taste. Can no longer taste lemon in subsequent sips.

夢 - 耐心自律

夢裡，其他同事不太清楚我的工作。其實我要為一些長者們逐一評估，在系統記錄結果。其他人知不知道明不明白也好，這都是我覺得要做也樂意做的份內事。

繼續睡夢修持。臨睡前唸廿一遍，我會在夢中知道自己在做夢。然後從頭到腳掃描全身內外，保持開放的覺知，直到睡去。夢中，開始有種抽離，像在夢中的同時，又在看著夢。下次再有這種感覺，再試試能不能就提醒到自己覺知在夢中。又開始想，也許記得夢的細節已經不再重要，方向可能轉為，當下體驗夢，在夢中修持，才是正事。

共時 – 自性

醫師問是哪裡不舒服。我說，我也不知道是好了還是差了——手好像比之前好，鬆了，腳和盤骨卻好像差了。醫師忽然說，所有都是空，除了自性，只要明白除了自性甚麼都是空，其實病痛都是空。醫師又問我有沒有做功課。我猶豫了一下，他是在問我有沒有早晚前後手打圈一百次，還是在說禪修打坐？他補充說，即是打坐。我立即答，有呀，現在每晚做的正是心性禪修。

醫師見我聽得明白，繼續說起見法身的怎樣的體驗，強調那是平靜淡然的喜樂，而不是狂喜。我想起解脫，也許不止是離苦得樂和無苦之妙樂，而是連苦樂都能看清是空，只是安住。他說會看見自己，我又想起前兩天就是星期日，半睡半醒間剛好我真的有體驗到，不在身體裡也不在任何地方的自己，正聽見觀察到自己。當然我肯定沒有看見自己的身體睡在床上，也許那也是個開始和進展。

他說其實每個人都會經歷到，就是臨終中陰的一刻，但那已經太遲，所以要修行。他那時候就是瀕死，在那個狀態很平靜喜樂，但還是回來了，而回來，就一定還有事要做，所以到現在他快七十還要繼續做。他鼓勵我不必理會別人，繼續修行，說他也經歷過所以明白，亦不用著急，只要持續看見生起的念頭，不追著跟著走只是看見，就不會被念頭吸走，就已經是走在修行的路上。我告訴他，我現在還真的有時會走著走著，問自己，這一刻自己的心在哪裡？

夢 - 流動的愛沒止息

夢裡，電視上在播日本美食劇集，不同人去到同一家店，點不同的菜式各有獨特的吃法。我邊看，邊把已死去幾個月的妹釘僵硬的身體，抱到睡房裡靠牆的雙人床上。她僵硬的身體好像微動了一下，我過去輕撫她的身體看著她，她的眼睛也打開微動，無力地又了動了動手和身軀，竟重新活過來。她身體漸軟漸暖，我把頭靠著她身體，邊摸著她的回復柔軟的身體和軟滑的毛，又讀了幾個故事。已整個上午半天了，她還活著，雖然沒走沒跳沒下床只是躺著。我又讀了幾篇，想點外賣，邊想不知她還能復活多久。然後，才發覺她又慢慢變冷變僵硬不動。我哭著一聲聲叫著妹妹，邊確認她回復死去。書的摺角還在同一頁，即是剛才不是夢。我從房裡走出廳，外面整夜大風大雨，雨水一直從窗邊牆的裂縫灑進屋內，已微浸濕近窗的地上。再看右邊的冷氣，已被吹跌一些大件部分在沙發，雨水也從露出的大洞灑入。我拾起逐一嵌回，封回冷氣機的洞，仍是邊哭邊叫著妹妹。醒來，打開眼，天還未光，看看手機，5:05am，我沒有在哭。起來上個洗手間，躺回床上記夢，不想忘了有她的夢。記完夢，天還未亮。愛你，好愛好愛你。抱著枕頭閉上眼打算再睡，耳邊腦裡響起王菲的歌聲，思念是一種很玄的東西......又打開眼，記下這一段，如影隨形......才又有點想哭。閉上眼，歌聲繼續響起，無聲又無息出沒在心底......

再睡去。夢裡，我跟媽在咖啡室餐廳，我在研究餐牌，主要是甜點，同一頁裡有兩張照片，　都是高身杯裡放著紅色白色的，我猜一杯是士多啤梨雪糕忌廉芭菲，另一杯以士多啤梨蛋糕作底加上忌廉和奶油。年青束著長髮的女店員一人在應付大廳的客人，很忙，出乎意料地樂意停下給我解釋兩者的分別，但當我想想問和加點同頁似乎以糯米糍為靈感的放在高身杯的甜點，她已走開。我再看看價錢，變相一個糯米糍賣四十幾元又似乎不值。變成我自己坐在靠牆的兩人枱，媽剛和家人繼續坐在剛才的四人枱，兩張枱中間隔了讓一人通過的走廊。有中年情侶在等位，輪流上完洗手間回來，我意識到他們可能誤會了等我這張枱，因為我身後的二人枱才是空著的，雖然看上去有點擠，便善意對他們說我還點了餐未到，又指指後面的二人枱，他們說謝謝便走過去坐。

七時，鬧鐘響，很累，我閉上眼再睡一下。終於起來的時候，忽然感覺身體裡流動著愛——愛沒有止息。

夢 - 睡夢瑜伽

臨睡，放鬆身體，吸氣到全身覺察到有繃緊的地方，放鬆放下到床上。平常我都想著快點睡早點睡著，這天卻想起，不必急著入睡，保持開放的覺知即可。感覺到平常沒有覺察到的身體覺受，聽見以前沒聽過的聲音。整夜的夢裡，我去參加聚會，多是不熟的人，但都是各有修持的朋友。那裡又像是宿舍。大家買了好吃和有名的美食店的食物過去。其中是一碗碗白滑的燉奶，隱藏吃法是，加豆腐花在上面。雖然不是我帶去的又跟大家不熟，我也不客氣地拿了碗吃。很滑很香很好吃。大家各自在內外參觀，外面又像有些種植地方。半夜緩緩平靜醒來，感覺像從禪修中出來，沒有打開眼，只回到開放的覺知，若是覺察身體有繃緊，又放鬆放下回床上。又有時覺察是在夢裡，便試著在夢中保持覺知。有時聽見自己放鬆的呼吸聲醒一醒，又繼續閉著眼安住在開放的覺知。就這樣整晚進出同一夢裡，沒打開過眼，只是一覺察便盡量保持覺知。早上鬧鐘依時響起，我又閉眼回想一下夢，到重響才打開眼。精神沒平常那麼累，卻有種清明，身體也沒有平常的緊痛，倒有點輕鬆。

自十二月上了睡夢瑜伽閉關，有時試著練習，效果進展都不大，這晚該算是大半年來的大突破，還解答了一個我想了好久的疑問。一直想知道冥想打坐禪修，是否可以讓人睡少些，畢竟愈來愈覺得時間不夠用，尤其現在做完每天練琴功課練習，已經起碼半夜十二時半，再做晚上手腳舒展，往往已經接近一時才能睡。這晚的體驗像給了個初步答案，不是冥想打坐禪修讓人睡少些，而根本就是邊睡邊禪修！

冥想催眠日記 2026.6.28-7.28 The Void

2026.6.28 Sunday

Pol 1 hr. The Void workshop with Edwin. In the opening meditation, feeling very Intense energy, like black cloud surrounding my head and keep shaking. When chanting the mantra, feeling the Intense energy again. When listening to the chanelling of Lady Anami, feel warmer and warmer on both open palms, finally seeing black flame on each of the palm, growing bigger and bigger being held on my palms. During the initiation of hidden chakra, feeling cool on the tummy, slowly swirling energy, but not black, pale yellowish white. Saw a golden balance swinging slowly in the dark.

2026.6.29 Monday

Pol 1 hr. As usual 8 mins.

2026.6.30 Tuesday

Pol 1 hr. As usual 9 mins.

2026.7.1 Wednesday

Pol 1 hr 10 mins. As usual 12 mins.

2026.7.2 Thursday

Pol 1 hr. As usual 6 mins.

2026.7.3 Friday

Pol 1 hr. As usual 7 mins.

2026.7.4 Saturday

Pol 1 hr. As usual 12 mins.

2026.7.6 Monday 

Pol 1 hr 12 mins.

2026.7.7 Tuesday 

Pol 1 hr 15 mins.

2026.7.8 Wednesday 

Pol 1 hr.

2026.7.9 Thursday 

Pol 1 hr.

2026.7.11 Saturday 

Pol 1 hr.

2026.7.12 Sunday

Pol 1 hr 15 mins.

2026.7.13 Monday

Pol 1 hr 15 mins.

2026.7.15 Wednesday

Pol 1 hr 10 mins.

2026.7.16 Thursday

Pol 1 hr 10 mins.

2026.7.17 Friday

Pol 1 hr 10 mins.

2026.7.18 Saturday

Pol 1 hr.

2026.7.20 Monday

Pol 1 hr 19 mins.

2026.7.23 Thursday 

Pol 1 hr 9 mins.

2026.7.24 Friday 

Pol 1 hr 11 mins.

2026.7.25 Saturday 

Pol 1 hr 8 mins.

2026.7.26 Sunday 

Pol 1 hr 45 mins.

2026.7.27 Monday 

Pol 1 hr 14 mins.

2026.7.28 Tuesday 

Pol 1 hr 8 mins.

冥想催眠日記 2026.6.25-26 Working with Ganesh

2026.6.25 Thursday

Pol 1 hr. Lord Ganesh workshop with Ann-Marie. Ganesh gave me a golden wand with a big violet precious stone inside the golden nest head. Power, to lead, do magic. like a set, it also came with a red crown with gold frame and ornaments and red thick fluffy velvet luxurious robe with golden embroidery. Authority, allowing to be seen, leadership. Protection and status. Mice pulled out from head and shoulder, they were my own thinking and thoughts, responsibilities and expectations I put on myself, creating all the stress and tension, all about myself not others. To replace those pulled out, Ganesh put in light, wisdom and virtuous deeds I gathered and accumulated in other lives. I can call the light and wisdom when needed.

Root chakra: rocks scattered and blood flowing out from the bottom

Sacral chakra: thick and lingering golden trunk being trimed to fine golden lines

Solar plexus chakra: cracked a dark yellow ball, then a golden sun showed and shining

Heart chakra: a closed lotus formed by line, become rich thick petals lotus blossoming

Throat chakra: cutting blue sea, blue water flowing, become with fish and life in the flowing river

Brow chakra: eye, brown and still, become open, clear and alive

Crown chakra: golden star shining and turning in circular movement

Earth star chakra: soil, mud, ground, become big tree, tree become bigger with thick trunk

Casual chakra: cloudy white, clear emptiness, spiral clear wind going up

Soul star chakra: rough rock become precious stone ball with enormous faces reflecting rainbow colour turning in circular movement

Universal chakra: fountain with continuous flow of multi-colour energy rays

Stella gateway chakra: star dust, turned to multi-colour firework

Physical and etheric body: rigid tight mummy, bandage unfolding and releasing 

Mental body: feeling hot and cloudy energy enclosing my body

emotional body: open full length curtain to both sides, can see garden outside clearly, daytime, green and can go out if wanted

Casual body: sleeping in a white cell shaped spacecraft floating across in the dark universe with silver sparkling spots 

Blessing: many colourful small flowers gently dropping on me, Lord Ganesh dancing, multi-colour light threads around me, beautiful music playing

2026.6.26 Friday

Pol 1 hr. As usual 12 mins.

夢 - 落手落地

臨睡，提醒自己保持覺知，並在夢中覺知在做夢。很快也有感到身體向下沉，和輕晃，然後腳底和手心都輕輕在放暖風，不是熱和出汗那種，只是暖的風。

半夜的夢中好幾次在夢中覺知，但沒有覺察是在夢中。片段零碎，想起卻有種揚著長條布或水袖的流動畫面感。

臨起床的夢裡，和女好友M去她男友人新開的店，在中上環交界的內街地舖。舖面不大，是輕食店，她的兩位男友人也一起來。店像未正式開張。坐了一會，沒甚麼好做，我便起來說去學琴先離去。出到門外，才想起時間有點混亂。到底現在該先去練琴再去學琴，還是真的是時間去學琴。門外對面有一街角小食檔，是中年女人剛接手開的一人店。舊男中青年同事剛好去買食物，她看見他顯得有點不好意思，舊同事見她積極轉型卻表示鼓勵。

夢 - 也會被累到

臨入睡，平躺在床上，閉眼放鬆，掃描身體，讓繃緊的地方放鬆下來。左上背的筋骨位置特別痛。深呼吸，每次轉注在一個痛或緊的位置。每次深呼吸都不同，之後卻自然讓專注的位置有放鬆下來。覺察入睡前的覺受。感覺身體向下沉（地），同時身體輕輕地搖晃（水）。似乎是同時發生，沒有先後順序。感覺腳底在放冷風，上次也有這感覺，是因為腳沒蓋好被嗎。這時兩手掌心也放冷風，這就肯定不關沒蓋好被事了。然後軀幹一陣暖和。這就是火吧，冷熱的變化。然後聽見一下輕但沉的呼吸聲，是風嗎。聽到那下呼吸聲又帶我有一刻清明，隨即進入睡眠。

夢裡，我去拜訪不熟的女友人，到她在商場的小店舖。有些喪屍在外面走廊。我們把東西整齊放入保溫袋，放得剛剛好。輕鬆走出走廊，心裡知道我們可應付，襲擊對象也不是我們，所以不太怕也不太擔心。走上一層，看見走廊轉角有郵局，我好奇想去看看，因為他們應也是安全可應付這狀況。一位男郵差走出來，我們心知不妙，加快腳步沿走廊向前走，男郵差慌張地走在我們後面，再後面是追來的喪屍。隔著後面郵差，喪屍碰到我們。我隨即驚醒。

冥想催眠日記 2026.6.10-24 silver hawk of light

2026.6.10 Wednesday

Silver hawks of light attunement with Ann-Marie. See my higher self appears like a magician with mustache in colourful clothes and riding on an elephant in a small colourful circus tent setting. Surrounded by boundless divine white light with golden sparkles. Divine says, do magic, be playful. Then see a meditator in white robe sitting in deep meditation under a big tree. Divine says, these are all you. Connect with your true essence. Not to be bounded by any fixed form. You got the support, thing to ride on, and shelter. When connecting with the life in Atlantis as a member of the silver hawk of light group, see myself in white, but not appears exactly like human form. When the silver hawk of light activating in my current incarnation and akashic record, see more and more pages opening, and shining golden spark of lights, and they connect together. stunning. Seems like other lives in other dimensions also got initiated and activated the silver hawk of light at the same time.

2026.6.11 Thursday 

as usual. 25 mins.

2026.6.12 Friday 

as usual. 7 mins.

2026.6.13 Saturday 

as usual. 16 mins.

2026.6.14 Sunday 

as usual. 7 mins.

2026.6.15 Monday 

as usual. 8 mins.

2026.6.16 Tuesday 

Today's card is freedom. PoL 1&2. as usual. 10 mins.

2026.6.18 Thursday 

PoL 1&2. as usual. 15 mins.

2026.6.19 Friday 

PoL 1&2. as usual. 15 mins.

2026.6.20 Saturday 

PoL 1&2. Pol 1 hr. as usual. 12 mins.

2026.6.21 Sunday 

Pol 1 hr.

2026.6.22 Monday 

Pol 1 hr. As usual 17 mins.

2026.6.23 Tuesday

Pol 1 hr. Earth healing.

2026.6.24 Wednesday

Pol 1 hr. As usual 6 mins.

夢 - 覺知明辨行動

臨入睡，平躺在床上，閉眼放鬆，掃描身體，讓繃緊的地方放鬆下來。前幾天讀老師的歸零——遇見真實，讀到臨終的五大元素消融，在每晚入睡前也會發生。例如地的消融往往有感覺身體向下沉。他們走後，晚上常常平躺著閉眼卻沒有睡著，直到感覺身體向下沉，就知道是快要入睡的訊號。原來如此。掃描身體放鬆也是在書內讀到，當注意到身體緊的地方，讓自動放鬆，才開始能較快入睡。這晚我試著更覺察入睡前的覺受。很快便感覺身體向下沉，地消融到水，之後會感覺到流動吧。這個我以前也有感受過，身體像在輕輕地搖動。但我試著不去刻意找不去預期，只覺知。然後身體有種在輕輕晃動飄著的感覺。然後聽見沉重的呼吸聲。睡著了。聽到那下呼吸聲又帶我有一刻清明，才跌入無覺知的睡眠。

夢裡，我和舊老闆L和C夫婦，還有一兩人的，叫外賣點了四五樣。等了好一會，中年男人送來，說只有茄子，只送來了一盒圓切只有幾方塊的茄子。原來我們就在餐館，環境像室內大排檔。那就不用點外賣，我們直接找老闆娘點菜，既然剛才點的沒有，便點了其他我也想吃的，如半隻雞等。變成我跟男友人走進西餐廳，我好奇地看牆上餐牌。除了外場用餐區，中間有間大房，也是用餐區放有餐枱椅，應該較貴。變成我一人走進宗教社區參觀。我悄悄走進一棟大樓，像宗教社區中心，像猶太天主基督教又像印巴教派。女人還是非教徒不能進去，裡面又像有甚麼秘密。我沿途躲避守衛，成功逃出外面，走進公園混進人群。後面追來的守衛只好放棄。

夢 - 無聲息災

夢裡，在大型活動場景。有人安排了人進場襲擊，我們則在人們不知情的情況下，低調地讓場內的人安全離去。男食友K說小時候會和朋友們把網球都染成紅色，這次也做了。臨開場比賽，女同事們已收回染紅的網球，讓比賽順利用回正常網球進行。場內的人像貓，都被養得有絨蒜毛，穿著灰袍。我們繼續不動聲色地，指示他們安全離開。

昨晚上The Void課，十時多已很想睡，上完課更覺得要快睡到夢裡沉澱整理。今早醒來，想起這夢，和昨晚的課，才能理出點頭緒。能量好深好沉，像不自覺地被吸入深不見底無邊無際的漆裡面，又記起老師特別說起老一派的靈性行者通常不透露不多說自己的soul source和前世。以乎The Void較適合用作息災，強大地以無法預知的方式，卻又不被察覺地就處理掉。

冥想催眠日記 2026.6.3-9 rescue meditation

2026.6.3 Wednesday

rescue meditation with Steve. first saw the lost souls were hesitate to pass the bridge and keep looking back. Once some started to pass over the bridge, more and more souls came out from the sea and the underground. Some were stuck in between the ground and underground. some little angels showing as golden white light pulled them out and led them to cross the bridge. so beautiful. a participant shared that she felt herself went deep down and became a spark of light pulling out lost souls and guiding them to the bridge. another participant shared she saw a muddy place with buildings and the souls stuck in the mud were pulled out. we are connected!

2026.6.4 Thursday 

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.6.5 Friday 

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.6.6 Saturday 

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.6.7 Sunday 

as usual. 16 mins.

2026.6.8 Monday 

as usual. 25 mins.

2026.6.9 Tuesday 

Earth healing.

冥想催眠日記 2026.5.27-6.2 Maitreya

2026.5.27 Wednesday

Pillar Love & Light Blessings meditation with Lindsley. Hot and sweating during the process (with air-con on). When the meditation begins, feel strongly Maitreya's presence, behind me. Then when teacher guides us through, the lotus, then with golden light in the lotus, then with violet light in the lotus, they are echoing my morning meditation merging Maitreya's bubble of love and compassion in lotus shape, with Buddha's bubble of peace emerging golden light, and Lady Portia's silver violet flame, that I am carrying with me and sending these mini mixed colour lotus bubble to beings who need them. I have not told anyone about this before! What a synchronicity!

2026.5.28 Thursday 

as usual. 9 mins.

2026.5.29 Friday 

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.30 Saturday 

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.31 Sunday 

as usual. 10 mins.

2026.6.1 Monday 

as usual. 21 mins.

2026.6.2 Tuesday 

as usual. 7 mins.

Synchronicity – Path of Liberation 1&2

June 16: Angel card for the day was “Freedom”. Starting my journey of the path of liberation with Tergar that night. 

June 17: 

So many students, so crowded, so packed. Just so happened the seat on my right was vacant that I could get more space throughout the course. 

Thinking whether to take refuge. Arrived more than half an hour early in the morning and hanging around the venue, and registered to take refuge. 

Though being requested to go back to the venue at 5.15pm for the mandatory White Tara empowerment but arrived early at around 5pm, the hall was already full of students queuing up and I got to queue outside. Very long queue already. Not very organised seating arrangement, that some queue behind me got admitted to the hall and seated first. I breathed and told myself to have faith that everything happens for the best. I got seated at the first row after the VIP area right in the middle facing teacher even with space but not another row of chairs and people in front of me! 

My questions lingering for quite some while got answered during the empowerment. We take refuge not for ourselves, but wanting to benefit all beings to have happiness and be free from sufferings. What I can do to serve and to contribute, are just the four activities 息增懷誅. So touching.

Took official and proper refuge. Apart from the vow, chanting and ritual, Rinpoche cut a bit of my hair, and I got the refuge certification with a Tibetan dharma name for me.   

June 18: A whole day of heavy rain. Rainstorm signal red, black, red, black, but the whole day’s class went as usual and was total not affected.

June 19: Still not taught nine-fold breath and shaking Ha which are mentioned in the notes so I submitted a question on how to do these. Seems no one was aware that these were not taught, so later there was an announcement that they would be taught in the group practice session the next morning.  

June 20: 

Last day of the course. During the morning group practice session teaching taught nine-fold breath and shaking Ha, lama asked who did these the first time and most students raised their hands! Probably not only this time, but previous courses also missed these teachings!

IG fed me some posts of someone attended this course and I checked his profile. He is a young lama under Rinpoche. I messaged him on IG asking about the dharma name I got as I can’t read Tibetan. He kindly replied that night with a voice message demonstrating the pronunciation. Here’s his reply message:

Wow you got this name, this name I wrote and  སངས་རྒྱས (Sangye): The Tibetan word for “Buddha”. It literally translates to “purified and fully expanded” (referring to the clearing of all mental obscurations and the full blossoming of all enlightened qualities). རྒྱལ་མོ (Gyalmo): Meaning “Queen” or “Victorious Lady.” If we translate directly this word then it will be Buddha Queen 

冥想催眠日記 2026.5.26 Silver white light and rainbow pillow

2026.5.26 Tuesday

earth healing with Ann-Marie. Saw quite some beings I haven't seen before working together, they were in human form, but looked busy and tired. Felt heavy and intense energy on both hands most of the session. A sloopy young king sitting beside me on a bench. his noble brother sitting on another bench opposite to us, facing us, and he is the one helping the king and doing most of the work. Felt like we were in a church. Saw some beings of silver white. Suddenly I thought, oh now I am in another dimension! Then the scene turned all silver white that I could see nothing but silver white light filling the space. near the end, a kind loving goddess with blond long wavy hair dressed in white passed me a rainbow pillow, a gift for me.

冥想催眠日記 2026.5.24-25 Working with Razza

2026.5.24 Sunday

Razza, The Original Aboriginal workshop with Edwin. In the opening meditation to connect with Razza, the colour is in different shades of deep autumn orange, mesmerising. Deep and strong connection, touching with tears, like I'm home. Razza shown as an aboriginal red Indian. When asking who am I, see silver light. I am the light of truth, uncovering the truth. Then I am in an ancient village. I am the one who see in dreams. I act and lead people to make the dreams work out in life. Then see a big wheel, with different people on the wheel and seeing their stories when the wheel turns. The last scene is a man kissing a white unfinished human sculpture. All stories are showing human beings' ignorance. After the meditation, teacher mentioned a few he saw with strong connection, and I am one of them! In the dreaming totem meditation, first see a white elephant, not the big grey wild one, but a cute little one. Then see baby Krishna. I asked if that is buddha as I saw a similar pic today for Buddha's birthday. But it says no, it's Krishna. Then see baby Krishna wandering and playing joyfully in the mountain with milk streaming down. Then see a small white bird holding an olive branch in its beak. The images are all in white tone. Teacher mentioned dreaming totem can be several and related to soul, ancestral or past life.

2026.5.25 Monday 

as usual. 7 mins.

冥想催眠日記 2026.4.26-5.22 Working with Tachyons

2026.4.26 Sunday

The Tachyons workshop with Edwin. Light so bright. Energy so pure. In an exercise, I was like floating in some space between dimensions, flashback of some loving memories with 8j and md. just pure love. The reset back to zero point is great, and resonates with the DNA activation done in March. I am going to reset to zero point every night in sleep. must be great. Jol3 practice, 2 hrs.

2026.4.27 Monday

as usual. 15 mins. jol3 practice, 2 hrs.

2026.4.28 Tuesday

Earth healing. jol3 practice, 2 hrs.

2026.4.29 Wednesday

as usual. 15 mins. jol3 practice, 1 hr.

2026.4.30 Thursday

as usual. 17 mins.

2026.5.1 Friday

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.2 Saturday

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.3 Sunday

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.4 Monday

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.5 Tuesday

as usual. 26 mins.

2026.5.6 Wednesday

as usual. 17 mins.

2026.5.7 Thursday

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.8 Friday

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.9 Saturday

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.10 Sunday

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.11 Monday

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.12 Tuesday

Earth healing.

2026.5.13 Wednesday 

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.15 Friday 

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.16 Saturday 

as usual. 18 mins.

2026.5.17 Sunday  

as usual. 18 mins.

2026.5.18 Monday  

as usual. 10 mins.

2026.5.19 Tuesday  

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.20 Wednesday  

as usual. 21 mins.

2026.5.21 Thursday   

as usual. 15 mins.

2026.5.22 Friday   

as usual. 15 mins.