Active imagination - Encountering with the Self

I start with sitting still and taking a few deep breathes. With my eyes closed, I focus on my inhale and exhale. For each inhale, the air goes down to my belly. For each exhale, there seems to be also a force gently go deeper and deeper down inside my body. I set my intention for meeting the Self, and wait while observing my breath. 

Though with my eyes closed, I can see and feel some bright light shining from the top left on me. First magenta, then mixed with violet, blue, green and yellow, becoming a dancing mixture of vibrant colourful light. It is calming. I am not only being surrounded and embraced by the light, but also being filled with the light. 

“Are you the Self?” 

“Whatever you want to call us.”

“Are you the Soul or the Divine?”

“Whether is the Self, the Soul or the Divine, these are your human terms and definitions. Just feel, and experience, then you know you can find no words to fully describe us.”

Physically, I am cuddling a cushion, with my right palm on the cushion, and left palm on my right hand. While seeing the bright light, I sense that my right little finger is moving, sometimes my left thumb as well. It is like a signal of connecting and reaching out. I also sense two spirals moving from the top of my head, the right one spinning clockwise, left one spinning anti-clockwise. My body slightly oscillating left and right. When I try to think, there is something stuck in my stomach pushing making me want to throw up. All movement stops. I relax. A stream of energy, light but fast, goes upwards and out from the top of my head as a gentle fountain of light.   

“Feel. Just be. In us, there is no fear or worries.”

“Advice?”

“Trust. Trust your connection with us. Trust the process. There is always a bigger truth out of what you can perceive. Never think about ultimate. That is out of your reach and imagination, as human. Just take what you can take. Further truth will keep unfolding when you are ready. Have faith. Have faith that you are with us, in us, part of us. There is no separation, unless you make the separation. Call upon us, for unity, for strength, for support. You can trust us as we trust you, have faith in us as we have faith in you.”

I open my eyes. The light disappears. I close my eyes again the light is still with me. 

“Yes. Come to us, anytime when you want to. That’s the way. Just feel our presence. Whether with your eyes closed or open. Anytime, anywhere, any space, any dimension, even when you are in any form or shape.”

I say thank you and gently open my eyes. A sense of serenity washes and fills me, as well as a sense of expansiveness extended outside of my body. The light is still here, I know, even with my eyes open.