夢裡，公司的同層大會議室給了社署之類的服務單位，常有活動或課程。我約學院同事過來辦公室開會，卻記錯了，我和女同事K直接去了學院，還比預定時間早去到。接見我們的兩個男人，一是學院秘書長，一是主任。我們介紹了部門可提供的服務和協助的一個方案，對方似乎不太感興趣，我又繼續介紹online giving form，對方還是不太感興趣。本來有我最想說新計劃也是留作最後一擊即中的，卻怎也想不起。我們離開，回到辦公室，大會議室也是在上團體課。我才想起那個更好也可行的計劃。
2025/05/30
夢 - 並行
夢裡，我在一個校園裡，環境像理大那種，平台上有不同大樓和設施。佛學部女同事問問題，我一邊解釋給她聽，一邊心裡想著去泳池曬太陽。前女同事G和女同事E也在，我們先去更衣室換泳衣。我換上舊的淺藍色比堅尼泳衣，上半截是大幅得幾乎可蓋過上半身的，已經好久沒穿過。G去磅衣物行藏看有沒有超重要加錢。因為太久沒去又臨時起意去泳池，我想起手上沒有準備五元硬幣，投到儲物櫃放衣物。我跟E向前走著，我突然發覺上半截不見了，回頭看見掉在地上，拾回邊走邊穿回縛帶，想也許剛才拉得太高所以縛得不夠貼實，即使布夠大，似乎比堅尼還是得露出肩膊和肚，只蓋著胸部就夠。這時變成男中學同學K跟我一起走。還有一中年男暗地跟著我，想要監視我的行踪去向，看見他被拉了，我鬆一口氣，但其實他們不必懷疑我，我仍會做答應了他們中心的工作。
2025/05/29
共時性 - 夢/研討會/夢境塗鴉
4 月12日：早上起來，趕著上專業道德研討會。課上我最深刻的，是討論作為倫理委員會審批研究的道德標準。我當時認為根據Belmont report的三個基本原則，即尊重個人、善行和平等公正即可，尤其尊重參與者在對風險明白知情的情況下自願參與。課後，我想起那天早上的惡夢，我還以趕著起床上課為藉口，不像平常般速記關鍵字和內容。夢裡，我跟同工在學校討論是否該讓某中年男人在這裡工作。有人認為他的專業能力出眾即可，不必考慮個人因素，也有人認為他名聲不好不應錄用。我去上洗手間，一打開門便看見中年男人在裡面，他一手想拉我進去，我轉身逃跑大叫救命。同時間，女同事打開文件夾一看，激動地摔在枱上，發現他犯的就是風化案。他們發覺我不在，連忙出來找我救我，怕我有危險。我就在後衣領被抓著的瞬間驚醒。寫下這夢時，突然發覺，我的內在不是也有這種毫無商榷餘地想要保護弱小的部份嗎？我的內在不是同時也有需要被保護的脆弱部份嗎？然後才明白課上說的要考慮和保護脆弱群體。(夢原文：https://laughforgetsoul.blogspot.com/2025/04/blog-post_12.html )
5月9日：上表達藝術與轉化課。課上進行夢境塗鴉活動。
5月13日：交作業，寫了：夢以象徵寫成， 所以解夢也是多角度多層次，隨時間還可以繼續解的，直到夢者覺得已經解完夢，不想繼續探究，夢才「死」了。這個夢，本來是上課前的早上做的，我還以趕著起床上課為藉口不記夢。課後，我想起這個夢，就在記夢的時候，突然發覺，我的內在不是也有毫不猶豫要保護弱小的部份嗎？我的內在不是同時也有需要被保護的脆弱部份嗎？然後才明白課上說的要考慮和保護脆弱群體。到了討論光明面和陰暗面，我又想起這個夢，才發覺那個加害者也是我的一部份。但對這個夢的抗拒和強烈情緒從來沒有面對和處理過，所以我又作夢境塗鴉練習，又有了另一層體會。原始夢境是一個讓我驚醒的惡夢，情緒強烈，不安惶恐。在夢境塗鴉的過程中，我覺得情緒愈來愈平靜安心。一開始大家圍坐（中心黃色的圓），大家有不同看法（藍色和橙色與圓交叠的波紋），然後被負面不安包圍（啡色和黑色的電波紋），但其實大家即使有不同看法，大家都在（綠色和橙色圓球），也會毫不猶豫地出手幫忙和干預（紫色向內紅色爆炸中心投擲的力量），而原來一切都在圓滿裡面（最外面深綠色的大圓）。畫完後再看夢境塗鴉，就安心地覺得一切都是最好的安排，一切都是剛剛好，不多也不少，我並非孤立無援，被不同的力量關注和保護著。這個夢最重要的提醒，是考慮事情時，我得看見自己裡面既有受害者（dream ego），也有拯救者（同事）和加害者（中老年男人）的部份，而加害者往往是被排擠在外卻又把裡面籠罩著的陰暗面，讓自己不安恐懼，只有能看清即使加害者也是圓滿神聖安排的一部份，面對自己的這部份，才能全面考慮到並掌握完整的狀況，從不安轉化為安心。(夢境塗鴉及原文：https://laughforgetsoul.blogspot.com/2025/05/blog-post_23.html )
2025/05/28
夢 - 水龍捲
夢裡，我和家人和其他不認識的人在像是上環海邊。突然看見有人開始跑，原來有水龍捲，在前和後兩邊的近岸海裡快速成形。我們跑到內街，上室內碼頭暫避。那裡有洗手間，乾淨也有廁紙，但那麼多人，可能很快就用完資源。去到大餐廳食堂，打算吃點東西，已有很多人在，坐滿但夠位。我們圍坐一圓桌，我跟妹脫下外褸放在旁邊的櫈上，卻看見坐在別桌的表弟和其他人都穿著外褸，是因為怕被搶，還是要準備隨時走似的。氣氛很奇怪，雖然大家坐著，卻又蠢蠢欲動。走到街上，我提議走路回我西環的家。家人輕鬆地覺得不必沒理。我覺得奇怪，既然明知危險，家人和其他人怎麼不快點離開這區和人群.我就只想回家，躲在自己的家裡。
2025/05/27
冥想催眠日記2025.3.21-31 light
2025.3.21 Friday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 看見光，從一點變大成不規則黃綠色光。回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。十五分鐘。
2025.3.22 Saturday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 看見一匹銅光火馬從光點裡跑出來。回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。十五分鐘。
2025.3.23 Sunday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。十七分鐘。
2025.3.24 Monday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。二十三分鐘。
2025.3.25 Tuesday
Earth healing. Bring love and light when you walk through the world. remember, and be alert that you are love and light, all the time.
2025.3.26 Wednesday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。十五分鐘。
2025.3.27 Thursday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。十五分鐘。
2025.3.28 Friday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。十九分鐘。
2025.3.29 Saturday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。二十一分鐘。
2025.3.30 Sunday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。十六分鐘。
2025.3.31 Monday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。Set up space and protection. Chakras activation, I am presence, tree of light, merkabah activate. Michael cut cords. Sit in the liminal sacred space and align with Sirius energy. Connect with Higher Self. Conjure silver violet flame. 回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。二十六分鐘。
2025/05/26
The girl in a tree hole
Once upon a time, there was a girl living in a tree hole. She would occasionally peek to see the outsider world and listen to people who took rest under the tree or walked by, but nobody ever noticed she was there.
In a cold winter night, a ginger tabby kitten sneaked into the tree hole. She warmed his body and fed him. Since then, they talked, played, ate and slept together every day and got very close. Soon, the kitten grew to a healthy and strong cat.
One day, he asked her to go out to see the world. She said, “I have heard all kinds of stories. The outside world is too dangerous. I am so scared to go out.” He said, “Fear no more. I am with you.”
They went out of the tree hole. The sun was shining warmly. The land was soft and tender. The breeze was gentle and comforting. A dragonfly with a key-shaped tail came near, inviting them to follow it. On the way, the dragonfly danced and sang,
“The key is always with me,
when I'm ready to be free.
Staying there may be safe with ease;
flying high a different view you'll see.
Getting lost in the wood of trees.
Remember to always breathe.
Shh...listen to the gentle breeze.
It whispers,
"Loving yourself is the key."”
The dragonfly disappeared after taking them to a lake. The water was clear but it looked so deep. A big white swan was swimming in the lake. The girl asked the cat, “How can we cross to the other side? Should we ask the swan? But I’m not sure if she will help or if she’s strong enough to hold us.” The cat said, “Just try asking, and we’ll see.” The swan let them sit on her back and carried them to the other side of the lake. The swan sang in a mesmerizing voice,
“Let's flow
you don't need a boat.
Let's flow
to a far new road.
Let's flow
see the views you never know.
Let's flow
hear the stories untold.
Let's flow
don't worry about where to go.”
When they bid farewell, the swan gracefully said, “Thank you for your trust. People usually can only see my beauty but not my strength.”
They walked into the forest. It was getting dark and cold in the night. They cuddled each other and took some rest. A red dragon saw them and breathed a bonfire to warm them. The girl said, “The dragon is not as cruel as I thought.” The cat said, “Meet them, be with them and get to really know them before you judge. But bear in mind every dragon could be different.” In the next morning, they saw the red dragon flying and thanked it. The red dragon invited them to sit on its back, “Hold tight, and let’s fly high!” The forest was no longer like a maze when they looked from the above. Though the sky was still unreachable no matter how high they flew.
They landed on a flower field near the tree hole their home. There were full of beautiful blossoming flowers of vibrant colors. A unicorn ran to the flower field and marked a rainbow along the way. The girl and the cat tried to step out of its way and just to share the space with peace. When the unicorn got close and touched the girl’s face with its cheek, the girl responded by patting gently on its back. The unicorn cheerfully shared its adventures when they walked together on the flower field. “I like you. You are the first person not trying to control, catch or ride on me.” The flower field became their favorite place to hang around. Not only the unicorn, but the dragonfly, the swan, the red dragon, and other new friends would gather joyfully there.
When the cat got old and weak, the girl took him back to the tree hole, taking good care of him to make him most comfortable. No matter how hard she tried, still he died in her arms. Her heart broke into pieces and scattered on the ground. Since then, she either slept hoping to see him in her dreams, or cried when she was awake. One night, the cat finally came to her dream. “Death cannot part us. I am always with you. Pick up the pieces of your heart. Go see our flower field.”
When she woke up, she cried again as she could no longer see him around. She picked up the pieces of her heart from the ground as told. The pieces rebuilt into a transparent heart and she could see the cat now living in it, nodding and smiling at her. Her tears finally stopped and she ran to the flower field as told. It was now an abandoned field. Her tears flooded the flower field, her rages burned down all the flowers and trees around. She felt really sorry for what she saw.
Since then, she spent her days rebuilding and nurturing the flower field and trees around. At night, she went back to the tree hole to join the cat in sweet dreams. Not long later, flowers blossomed again and green leaves grew from the trees. The flower field again became a joyful playground for the dragonfly, swan, red dragon, unicorn and other creatures.
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