冥想催眠日記 2023.11.14 Nature spirits

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。chakras activation, tree of light, merkaba activation, violet flame, Michael cut cords. I can't see the cords, but the sword with violet flame moving near and around my body is like cleansing my energy field. Raphael put a green healing layer on my body. 

Uriel brought me passing through the same gate to the forest. We stopped somewhere in the middle of a circle of big trees. My back shivering and I felt some gentle breeze surrounding me. 

Uriel pointed at somewhere behind me with a smile and said, the air spirits got something to say. Rather than hearing words, it’s more like some breezing sound in the ears. “We are anywhere. We do not necessarily have forms. We can make water flows, fire glows, leaves singing different tunes. Formless is the most powerful.” 

I looked at the river on my front left. Water spirits’ voice was like jingling bells, clean and beautiful, like singing a poem in an amazing heavenly tone. “Let's flow you don't need a boat. Let's flow to a far new road. Let's flow see the views you never know. Let's flow hear the stories untold. Let's flow don't worry about where to go.” I felt drunk in the mesmerisng sound and those words were like flying around my head. 

Fire spirits on my right drew my attention back, showing me the fire and making a warm sensation on my hands. “I can make you warm. I can burn things down. When you can only see one side, see also the opposite at work.” 

A big old tree on my right spoke in a low earthly tone. “Ground is the magic word. Ground yourself as you now have roots. The more you are grounded, the more expansion of your branches and leaves. That's how the leaves can sing amazing new tunes and your enormous lights can shine to the sky.” Shaking leaves on the tree sounding various tunes. I can see my tree of light growing more and more light spots on the branches and shining bright. 

I felt very tired and overloaded. Uriel sang the low wooden flute tune to dismiss the nature spirits. He led me back to the gate and said, no worries while you write it down you can remember. 回來。累了。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。四十九分鐘。

夢 - 工作

夢裡，隱約也是在工作，很長過程逐步清清楚楚地在思考在做的工作。

冥想催眠日記 2023.11.12-13

2023.11.12 Sunday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。chakras activation, tree of light, merkaba activation, violet flame, Raphael green ray healing。放鬆舒服。之後Raphael雙手放近我全身加了一個綠光療癒層。Gabriel divine guidance。很多時一想起問題，答案便出現，怎樣分辦是腦袋想出來還是靈性指引。答道靈性指引通常即時出來，尤如靈光一閃，很快，腦袋想出來有過程經過，一步步分析推演，慢得多，要是想確定，閉上眼感覺，看見光便是靈性指引。對，我有突然想到些甚麼的時候，閉上眼看見紫色光，感覺是一個yes。我說其實也沒甚麼特別想問的。答道那便有想問的才問，或者之前的兩條問題都可以常問，what to do to better serve the Divine，what message to pass on to other people。回來。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。四十分鐘。

 

2023.11.13 Monday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。chakras activation, merkaba activation, violet flame, Michael cut cords. Raphael added a green healing protective layer around my whole body. It carried a soft and loving feeling. I asked Gabriel that sometimes I would be in doubt and feeling not sure about myself. He said you just close your eyes and ask, if you see light you would know there’s no need to doubt or hesitate, if there’s no light but just black and blank, that's also a message telling you to pause, see and no rush to take action. I thanked him. He slightly patted me on my head, leaving an orange layer of energy from top to back of my head. 安住。看見一個清湯掛麵黑髮鳥咀穿日本鄉郊衣服的小孩，背景是鄉野田園，粉色圖畫風。回來。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。三十分鐘。

夢 - 工作飯局

夢裡，我在公司，公司又是一間餐廳。本來約了一對母女客人吃飯，我有點後悔答應，不太想跟陌生人吃公務飯，幸好小女孩不舒服，臨時取消。幾位女同事忙著準備去跟男前校長和客人的飯局，我總是覺得不自然，走來走去想著要不要裝作忘掉不去算了。我走進廚房，知道準備了七人份餐點，數算著有沒有預我的一份，如果有的話，還是得過去比較好，沒有我的份的話，就安心不用去了。

夢 - 金光灑落/三個夢

睡下，閉眼放鬆，頭頂能量迴旋，全身感覺下沉微振的頻率，心想，來了，突然一片清明，很光，金光灑落在頭頂，能量在身體內流動，帶動手微動手指動，微張開口，舌頭一動便吐出一秒輕清泛音，再試，又吐出一兩秒輕清泛音，閉嘴不敢再試，慢慢來吧。剛才課後同學說起light language，又想起昨晩課上，老師說就是sound divas幫助發出的healing sound。沉睡。電話訊息響了一下，即時金光又灑落頭頂，轉清明，打開眼看手機，是dream sig的訊息，也許可以試試以channelling課所學去解夢。

夢裡，第一次，進房，答問題，很輕易。第二次，給一句信息回答，也不難。第三四次，要直接說，就開始難了，但也能順利完成。第二個夢，在工作，有些對答和實驗嘗試的。第三個夢，地上有兩顆吐了出來的西蘭花，是妹釘吐出來的，怪不得她這幾天吃得比較少，現在吐了出來便沒問題了。

夢 - 簡潔新居/出差

夢一，我剛搬到新居，間隔格局跟舊居一樣，但之前跟家人住，廳有入牆櫃有幾個大櫃桶放衣物，這間簡潔，沒有。開放式廚房，同樣頂有四格櫃，下有幾個大櫃桶。搬家時把東西一袋袋收拾好，例如餐具廚具放在一袋，現在要用也隨手從那袋取出即可，頗方便，索性就這樣吧，這樣廚房的幾個櫃桶就可用作放衣物。臨出門，我請媽打開廚櫃和大櫃桶看看，有點怕裡面髒或有昆蟲，自己不敢打開看。出到去商場，有年青男女要結婚，大家見我單身，說起怎樣才能結婚，我說我就不必了，單身比較方便。

夢二，全公司出差分配酒店房，我的一間較小，只有一張床靠三邊牆橫放，相連旁邊是前女上司P和女高層M的較大的雙人房，其他同事也是較大的雙人房，她們怕我嫌房小跟我解釋，我倒不在意，單人房又有獨立洗手間挺好的。她們又說起另一男同事，因為教授臨時不能來，所以也是住單人房，說得像他得要孤軍作戰了。我們又談起其他工作事宜。

夢 - 工作校園

夢裡，我在工作，在一個很大的校園裡，得穿過草地樹林小路去不同大樓和課室。我跟女好友M一起走，帶了一支發酵茶給她試，我們走進大樓，經過白色的地下走廊和課室，在臨上樓梯的左邊空間，有一兩個建築系學生在一張大枱上作畫，她看見忍不住走過去指導他們調色。我走上樓梯去到一個白色的大課室，裡面有白色大長方枱和平台空間讓大家分組聚集。一隻白貓在房內走來走去，大家只覺可愛，卻沒留意到她在地上不同地方留下大大小小乾的軟的貓屎。我還拿著本來帶給M試的發酵茶，索性打開在喝，邊喝才想起我之前已喝了一支，這已是今天第二支，指引說一天只建議喝一支，但反正已打開在喝，算了，不會死的，就繼續喝吧。有個年青女同事好奇這是甚麼。這時前男校長T走進來，我怕他踩到貓屎，趁大家沒注意在清理，還沒清理完，他已坐到右方角落的大白色長方枱，我也立即坐過去，以免他一人呆坐。白貓繼續若無其事地走來走去。他問起一些事，我立即從背後的架或櫃取出舊年報和帶著的最新資料講解，這時女退休教授Y走過來，校長跟我打個眼色，我立即收起最新資料，想了一下，改口說起那茶是我們校友研發的全天然成份無添加發酵茶，裡面的益生菌對腸胃很有好處。我走出課室，下樓梯看見M仍在投入地跟學生研究討論作畫和用色。我走出大樓，繼續向前走出校園，去到感覺是九龍城的街頭。抬頭看見一堆矮舊樓頂層的空置荒廢單位，前面隔條馬路是一堆燈火通明的高樓大廈。想起反正地方不夠租金又貴，能不能暫時用這些矮舊樓的單位，隨即搖搖頭，要是提出要用也一樣加大租金才不會便宜，即使為教育研究也一樣，這地方就是這樣。

夢 - 公司活動

睡眠愈來愈重要，除了休息和復原，似乎還有更深層的作用。夢裡，我在公司。這是個頗大的套房單位，進去裡面，左邊是二妹房，右邊是三妹房，裡面都有獨立洗手間。我想上洗手間，先進了二妹房，之前在這裡放了個驅蚊器作試驗，現在看見有很多蚊圍飛在飄著煙的驅蚊器上，附近地上也很多小小已經乾掉的蚊，一掃便是一大堆。怕去洗手間時有大堆蚊飛過來針屁股，還是不在這邊去，過去三妹房去好了。鏡頭一轉，同事們在準備mentorship活動，登記了的校外參加者因為人多，共有兩組，分開時段去同一地方參觀展覽和買東西。出去前，同事們在收拾東西，女同事L在一角，拿著一雙筷子，在一個平底墊了錫紙的鍋上做三文治。她愈弄愈純熟愈快。她不停手在倒蛋液炒蛋，炒好便放在放了芝士或生菜午餐肉的麵包上，一出鍋便有人從她手上拿走去吃。男同事W拿了一份芝士炒蛋三文治，在猶豫著，我見他拿了不吃，對他說不吃給我，他又不肯，即時分開上下連著芝士的麵包，待有生菜午餐肉的做好又拿了一份，兩款各一邊合成一份兩款味道都有的才吃。快用完麵包，在做最後一份了，不管甚麼我都只能即時拿來吃，否則便沒得吃要餓著，雖然其實我想吃芝士炒蛋的。出發，有一大串手機吊飾掉在地上，我拾起放在正方茶几才出去。我看見參加名單有朋友長老的名字，打算也去看看打個招呼。參加者要乘地鐵去目的地。地鐵站很多層很大，參加者都抽著大紅白藍袋或拖行李箱，似乎有很多想要買的。他們得先上長扶手電梯，轉彎再走一段路，才去到月台。我還未看見任何認識的朋友，便走下樓梯看看。那裡有一個大斜台，斜台上是控制室，有大玻璃看下來。斜台上有些員工打扮得漂亮地坐著，我拿出手機拍照，覺得那斜台設計頗有感覺。又有一些人站在一邊看。這時有員工代表走前，說公司說不要日日來，原來另一方是員工家屬，有揹著抱著孩子的，在追究之前的意外。我在旁看了一會，走回上一層，又見有一批人上到來。回到公司，我坐在自己的位置，舊女同事R經過，遞給我一個公文袋，上面寫著gelato，還有一張gelato券在上面。不久前才見過，這天她明顯變胖了許多，我關心地問候她，她說沒甚麼，她身旁常跟著她的舊女同事K則樣子依舊，這時R變回瘦些，原來是隨意能變的。

夢 - 書店

夢裡，我在校園裡的書店附近。女中學同學C穿著便服，帶著幾個孩子，混血有男有女，她們問起辦白事的詳情。我走進書店想買書。這天是星期六，有活動。有個外籍小女孩在傷心地哭。在收銀處，只有一位店員，女人想向店員查詢，正在收銀處排取前的長髮中老年男叫她上前問，她便走到收銀處先問，我想起之前也有接近情況，也是那男人等候期間被打斷，本來擔心那男人會不耐煩，但他很有耐心在一旁等店先回答女人的問題。

Ascension I - Akashic records diary 2023.11.18-22

DAY 1, November 18, Saturday:

From deep sleep, suddenly a magenta butterfly flied just before my third eye from left to right, then I got very lucid. Kept my eyes closed, saw 3d dynamic black with depth before my third eye (which I sometimes see in meditation but not in sleep). 

I am the convenor of a dream group that most members are not active and responsive. Today, two members showed great progress, one can recall more dreams and more details, the other is getting more reflective and willing to associate the dream with his personal life rather than just record his dreams and focus on the dream content.

I started to realise things saying to other people are sometimes (also) to myself nearly once after I said that. 

Feeling the urge to write more. At the same time the co-convenor of the dream group suggested me to write something for the society’s newsletter to promote the group. I suddenly remember that I got some dream course homework that I may quickly modify and use for the purpose. Kind of pushing me to work, rather then being lazy and procrastinating. 

DAY 2, November 19, Sunday:

Felt being more grounded when activated the earth star and align with the Hara line at my daily morning stretching. Can feel I can let in more lights from above and the energy from below, while let them pass through but not holding on to them in my body. 

Had family lunch with relatives haven’t seen for years, the first time after covid. As before I gave a small money to my grandma, and expected she would just accept and say thank you as usual. But this time, she immediately just held my hands tightly and we both could not say a word but just looking into our eyes with tears for quite a while. Her hands got warmer, like sending me her love and care in energy form, and letting me know that she’s fine and her energy force was still strong to live on. Think this was the most intimate moment between us as I can remember. Such kind of big family gatherings always made me felt bored and I just got nothing to say with relatives. But this time we could talk about our real feelings and had some deep conversations.

DAY 3, November 20, Monday:

Got called for an urgent meeting in the morning. Usually I would feel stressed out. But this time I could calmly manage and spend less time to leave home for work (but still got all the routines done!) 

Seems I could recognise feeling behind and within much faster than before. Say I can see behind the tense and stress of urgent work, there’s also excitement for the challenge.

Despite the urgent tasks and related discussion, can still manage to finish the day’s work a bit early for evening class. Think it’s Metatron helping. 

During meditation, felt that my body was heavy and pulled down to earth, more grounded, rather than like always ready to fly away. Also having quick feeling on which Archangels’ helps to ask for.

Didn’t close chakras and Merkabah after meditation, for the channelling class. After the class till sleep, felt dizzy. Went to bed early and suddenly remember I haven’t closed the chakras and Merkabah so I did that, and also asking excessive energies to be release through bottom of the feet. Can feel the energies going out.

DAY 4, November 21, Tuesday:

Can feel that the tree of light spread further and bigger.

Can manage to spend less time to leave home for work in the morning.

Being more patience and calm when dealing with colleagues.

More focus and efficient, especially when handling multiple tasks at the same time. Today it’s like doing two or even three times work in shorter time.

Receiving responses for work outstanding and stuck for years.

Colleagues seems to be more helpful and understanding, say would suggest to extend deadline and let me do my work instead of coming around and asking this and that.

Communication with colleagues seems easier and more effective than before.

Less emotional. I usually would get very emotional when I’m tired or hungry. But today it’s too busy even had no lunch, I can still manage to leave work on time for a nice early dinner.

DAY 5, November 22, Wednesday:

In general getting better sleep. Felt great this morning when I got up rather than still feeling very tired.

Seems I can remember less dream details if I got more messages and imageries in meditation or class.

Now usually would have some deep deep sleep in the first half of the night. Can’t remember much details of dreams at that state. Usually would only be some vague memories of researching and developing methods, teaching, or advising colleagues on their methods. Feeling good for this. Like living another life doing interesting exploration and new work with a team.  

While activating the tree of light in standing position, the body quickly get warm with energies goes up. The tree of light further expands.

Having a clearer mind. It helps a lot as I need to manage many tedious tasks at the same time which also required gathering information from various sources and making judgement and advices quickly.

Do think Metatron helped a lot since I’m introduced to him.

夢 - 信息求證

夢裡，我跟同學們說起Netflix有些跟channeling有關的節目，例如哪幾套值得看。我又跟女上司們說起，問她們有沒有看過Netflix那靈媒邊通靈邊畫圓，尤如那節目裡，信息只能指示方向，她們還是得靠自己找真憑實據求證，才能作準。 

夢 - 校外活動

夢裡，我在學校，看著電腦螢幕上的課程資料表，清楚簡潔列出幾項相關資料，有名稱備註等，很好。深沉睡眠中醒來，睡回。夢裡，我跟爸媽妹和其他人在一間中學集合，由一中青年男和他女友帶領，大家轉乘旅遊小巴，共十多人坐滿，穿過剛好夠一輛車過迂迴曲折有時還得駛上鐵樓梯的圍村小路。大概是學校怕敏感有責任，所以要在校外做，村裡走路危險村民也不是善男信女，所以雖然路途能走得到還是要乘車，不能太多人車也不能太大，所以現在用的是十多人的旅遊小巴。穿過圍村去到目的地，是戶外地方。中青年逐一為大家啪骨，他幫了我幾次都啪不到。回到學校，他再試一次，還是不能幫我啪得到。鏡頭一轉，我跟兩妹和一男子在卡啦OK房，剛好四人有四個咪，二妹坐在近門口位置，叫了人拿新咪袋來換，我們拿著搖控在選歌，換咪袋的時候，男子拿了藍色的咪，二妹用綠色，剩下一支綠色一支黃色，我想三妹應該比較喜歡黃色，自己便拿了綠色的，讓她用黃色的咪。 

夢 - 咭牌/新花園

夢裡，我剛搬家到灣仔後街的樓宇。地方頗大，有房。我想起有大天使牌，想找出來抽，卻抽出了一張raider waites。我去到青年男女友人家，在灣仔前橫街的矮樓，坐在廳裡頗舒適，他們有多一間房，問我要不要搬過去一起住。我想想也好。前女上司P來電問公事，我説要忙著搬家，你不如來幫我把東西由後街搬到隔幾條街的前街，邊搬邊談。但想想又要搬書又多雜物，還是不要搬好了。我走到前橫街某店，裡面有賣很多不用款式的牌。其中有一副紅底燙金字圖中英對照的小咭牌，張數多但字太小印得太密，字看得不清楚，翻翻書，在大本avalanche有逐張牌介紹。進裡面內室又有全套幾張A4大小的彩色mandala但裡面圖案不是圓形，倒像立體圖，張數不多，印了sasa  logo。遇上中年男琴友V，他家給他寄了鴨蛋，看得見透著裡面橙紅的大蛋黃，他給了我一個吃。吃完我繼續在內室找小天使牌。出到外面遇見女好友B，我們一起逛後面大街，多了些很美的新建小花園，走進去我們各自逛，裡面有新建的廟，又進去看。出來時遇見男友人F，一起向前走進室内展覽場地，內堂有喇嘛在講課，外面廳金碧輝煌很多法器裝飾，他解說是較少見的某派藏密。走出去，又遇見V，我們三人一起走，遇見女高層M跟女兒一起，說起這裡都沒甚麼好看的。我們正想著要不要去前面大廈或私家醫院看有甚麼展覽，這樣的話還是找地方吃飯算了。時間尚早，進去地舖大排檔有位。鏡頭一轉去到V家避雨，他的一位自小照顧他親如他姐姐的本地中年女士也在，她在做肉餅，一隻碟放了打開的鹹蛋，一隻碟放了剪碎了有油浸著的土魷，她在再右邊處理切碎豬肉，她講解給我聽如何做，例如每次用一隻半小魷魚剪碎即可。我不小心把碟上浸魷魚的油推瀉了一點，她也沒所謂，反正份量差不多即可，也不是要很準確的。我本來覺得V也是夠麻煩挑剔的，這樣差不多也可，算是沒那麼麻煩吧。鏡頭一轉，在街上，V和女友早上出門上班，似乎他女友昨晚在他家過夜。他們之間態度並不親切，也許相處久了太習慣，感情像老夫老妻有點冷淡。他女友說起塞車又要轉車才能趕回公司的。分別後，他的中年女友快步過馬路，背影高瘦，穿著藍色薄寬長裙，他已即時轉身向相反方向走去上班。

夢 - 一樣又不一樣

先是一段深沉睡眠。夢裡，我在學校裡研究個案，有人說transference跟countertransference其實是一樣的東西，我給他們講解兩者其實不同。半清明，想著這夢，打開眼，半夜三時多。睡回，繼續剛才的夢，繼續研究，有小男生在上課，我又發現transference跟countertransference其實在另一層次上可說是一樣的，視乎如何處理和實行。鏡頭一轉，我在考試，只考一科。明明學期未完，仍在上課。我猜可能那考試要用器材，所以得在有器材和空檔可用的時候先考。考試對我來說並不困難，所以先考也沒關係。反而繼續在上的幾個課程有點深，那些考試也比較要多準備和較難。

夢 - 獨立辦公室

夢裡，我在公司，在一個很大的校園裡。我們剛搬辦公室，我的新辦公室自己有一間房，得用鎖匙和拍咭進去。就像一個在地面層的獨立單位。我認得這間房本來是兩間相連中間有一個門口位打通的，各放了幾張枱坐滿人。現在連牆也打掉，打通了成為一間讓我一人用，裡面靠牆有單人床，外面是辦公桌，這才夠空間舒服嘛。我想著要不要在大門旁的窗邊貼牆放一雙皮鞋，作為有沒有人在的暗號，在外面從窗裡看進去便知。發覺靠牆的東西都移了出一隻手掌位，也許是剛搬進來時移出作徹底清潔，我便都把東西推回貼著牆，這樣空間又大了一點點。我走去主辦公室那邊，大部份同事都坐那裡，很大地方劃成不同區域，排滿辦公桌坐滿人。我跟另一同事都去找處理行政的同事，查詢跟其他人有關的附屬合約改動，她給了我們範本自己改。我想就我們自己改便實行也不好，應在她們提供的範本標示想作的變更，再交她們檢查同意才落實版本簽署。但她們甚繁忙，我未說出口她們已走開處理其他事。我跟女同事E去飯堂買外賣，遇見中年男同事L，沒打招呼我們買完便回多人大辦公室那邊。我想想還是該打個招呼，便用隨便一個枱頭電話致電，他很快便接電話，說正跟下屬R吃午飯，我說你在外面怎麼還能接電話，他說有飛線，我輕鬆地說不用出外吃飯時也飛線接工作電話，就好好吃飯休息嘛，我也沒特別事只是剛才遇見打個招呼，那就拜拜了，他聽了知道沒公事急事也鬆了一口氣放鬆了。

夢 - 同伴

平躺在床上，閉上眼，放鬆。頭頂是旋轉的能量。剛才課上收到的信息在腦裡縈繞，像在組織和加強。跌進深沉睡眠。突然一隻鮮艷紫紅色的蝴蝶在眉心前快速從左至右飛過，瞬間變得非常清明。仍然閉著眼，眉心前是立體流動有深度的漆黑。跌入深沉睡眠。半夢半清明，信息又在腦裡飛來飛去組合，像在自我微調。起來上洗手間，剛過半夜三時半。躺回床上，字仍在飛，寫下在手機，You give people wings to fly, help them see their passion, let them realise there are other possibilities to live a life. 寫完才能安然睡回去。

夢裡，我跟一群人在一間大房裡，大家是同伴。有人收到訊息說師姐Brownie只能來上下午的課。我睡在沙發上，好累，畫面和信息量超載。Brownie來到，輕輕以兩隻手指按在我的眉心，微笑著說，不用做得這麼快，慢慢來。一個柳樂優彌樣子的黑幫大佬走進來，後面跟著一個跟他差不多年紀的青年跟班。他因為欣賞我們的前領導者，樣子像菅田將暉的青年，所以讓我們繼續用這地方。但因為前青年領導已離開到其他地方升學，這兩個男人認不出我們。他們走上右邊的台上攤坐在長梳化，跟班站著，我們甚至下跪求他。一位年青女生，穿著潔淨白袍戴著白色頭巾，像聖母，平靜地走進房間正中的小水池，邊說著她和她深愛的哥哥的故事。之後她走上台，手上拿著一罐小茄汁豆，遞給男人。男人接過那罐打開了的小茄汁豆，往嘴裡倒下，吃了一小口便帶著手下離開，似乎憐憫女生，也為她和她哥哥的故事感動。

Akashic Records

What need to know?

Heaven is not a place. Heaven is what you can manifest, but others may not be able to see or experience. Remember in last night’s dream, you see the blue sky and white clouds via the camera’s lens, that you bend backward to change your view, until you see the gorgeous view. When you want an answer, look up into the sky, change your views and perspectives, then you’ll see what you need to see. And now you have wings. Practice, now you can fly by yourself.

What’s next on spiritual path?

Write as much as you can. Speak what comes to your mind. When you write or speak, you are also connecting, downloading from the source, and you can know more. When you feel something about other people, tell them. They may not be able to understand, but you just plant a seed. When they are ready, or getting awake, they will understand.

What’s the returning gift?

You give people wings to fly, help people find their passion, let them realise there are other possibilities to live a life.

What to do with that?

Do not afraid to talk about what you feel or what you feel about other people. Do not afraid to be kind to other people.

Clearing a past life:

Before entering, I felt a short sharp life pointing to my left neck, and I knew my throat would be cut and I would be bluntly killed. Think that's related to blockage of the throat chakra, for not being able to easily express myself well and speak fluently. Though I thought I could take it, guess it's to protect me from being haunted by the scenes, I was shown another life instead. Abandoned by mother soon after birth, the father kept the girl in a box and chained her so that she couldn’t escape. He used her to make money by performing little tricks and shows on the streets. He could see her value but just not giving her what she deserved. Being manipulative and controlling, he is just so dependant on and attached to her, holding her with him and won’t let her go. They are always travelling with no destination.

But there’s an additional message for this clearing, from abandon to abundant, you can transform abandon to abundant.

Ascension I - Violet flame diary 2023.11

DAY 1, November 4, Saturday: 

Before I met my friend, I suddenly remembered there’s a labyrinth nearby. So I went there, first call the four Archangels to set up and clear the space (enclosing me inside), then take out the violet flame from my heart chakra. I divided the violet flame into two, one put back to my heart chakra, the other enlarged to cover the whole labyrinth and space around, with the intention to clean it and raise it to higher vibrations, so that those who walk the labyrinth can best benefit from the walking meditation. Finally I put the Divine white light to fill the space and put on myself bubbles and cloak of protection. At night during meditation, I also used the violet flame to cover my entire flat and inner meditation room for clearing unwanted energies and raising vibrations.

DAY 2, November 5, Sunday: 

During meditation, just after the four Archangels set up and cleared the sacred space, the violet flame jumped out from my heart chakra. So I just let it glow. It quickly became big enough to cover me with all my chakras and I just sit in that.

DAY 3, November 6, Monday: 

I was going to clean my cubicle but the four Archangels, even much taller and bigger than they usually appeared to me, were standing outside enclosing the whole office building. So I took out the violet flame, starting from my cubicle, seeing it enlarged to covering the whole building. Guess the over 100-year-old building would like to get rid of unwanted energies and vibrations accumulated in all the years too. While I’m writing this and looking out of the window, I suddenly notice a butterfly keeps flying around the tree.

DAY 4, November 7, Tuesday: 

After lunch when I was sitting in my cubicle, I felt a bit dizzy. I took out the violet flame and enlarged it to enclose myself. Sore on the right side of the back and neck. Some energies went up from my right back up to the neck then got out from the head, the left side followed. Though no more sore on the back and neck, I sat quietly in the violet flame until the forces going up and crackling sound were all gone.

DAY 5, November 8, Wednesday: 

Getting late this morning. So many people standing on the escalator ahead of me so I called out the violet flame to clear my way to work. After the escalator, there appeared to be less and less people on the path, until the path was clear with no one walking except me. After entering the main entrance, people started to appear again. There were even a colleague blocked my way when I walked back to my cubicle in the office. I suddenly remembered I only visualized the violet flame clearing the way up to the main entrance of the campus…

Teacher suggested me to experiment using the flame to cleanse the space before I go. I was suspicious as how I could know the difference before and after if I was not cleansing the space on spot. I tried anyway. The next morning before I went to work, I called and visualized the violet flame to clear and cleanse the route to office. When I walked to work, the pathway was surprising empty that no one was ahead of me blocking my way, and the traffic light just turned in time that I just walked through without any need to stop and wait. When I arrived the office entrance, the doors were wide-opened (usually the doors are closed that we need to tap our staff card to get in). Even the blockages on my way back to my cubicle were all cleared (the air-con was out of service those days and there were lots of air-con towers all around the office, but they were all gone when I went in). Astonishing. It only happened once in that morning, in my ten years working in this office.

老師提議去地方前先清理。我很懷疑，要是不在當場清理，怎可能知道前後有啥分別？我還是試著做。第二天上班前，召喚和想像紫火清理上班的路。路上出奇地暢通，無人在前擋路，連交通燈都剛好轉成可直行直過，無需停下等候。辦公室的門竟都打開了（通常關上要拍咭進入），連走回座位的路上都暢通無阻（那陣子壞冷氣，裡面到處是一座座流動冷氣機塔，進去時都不見了）。神奇。我在這裡工作十年，這是唯一一次。

夢 - 診所內外

睡得深沉，只記得夢裡我在一間四方房間，感覺是在家，但完全沒有傢俱雜物。說不上是光還是暗，沒有燈光，但又不是漆黑，房間裡只是一片清淨亮麗的淺黃色。反復提醒要多跟archangels work去練習。Uriel站在我的前左方房間一角，正是平日meditation時他站的角落。打開眼起來上洗手間，早上六時。

睡回，夢裡，我跟媽和妹在家。每天我們其中一人都會去中醫診所拿藥，藥材用紙包成四方形，放在紅色背心膠袋裡。有時媽去，會拿一袋藥，和一袋似是褲或衣服，似乎因為診所和她相熟的衣販檔都在油麻地，女檔主預先拿到中醫診所方便媽一次過取。這天我去，在門外，看見天色好美，像日出漸由暗轉光，中年男同事架起腳架相機拍照，我說藍天白雲好美，其他同事卻說畫面偏黃，我說不會呀，由相機鏡頭看出去，向後彎身直到一個看見建築物頂和大片藍天白雲的最美角度，天更光更藍襯著片片白雲。我坐在診所外的矮磚牆上，下面有一人攤坐著，是流浪漢或遊魂，我小心跳下地面時避開不踏到他或他的家當。在診所大廳裡，有中青年女護士和幾位等候見醫師的年青女生。醫師從診症室走出來，是個新上任的青年男醫師。我看見八仔，雖然受傷患病，還是很活潑地在診所大廳走來走去，便追著他走。媽來到，我哭著跟她說，其實我明知他走了，看見他還是想見想摸摸他。其他人都沒理我，像有默契或共識只要由得我就好。

Ascension I - Archangels diary 2023.11.11-15

DAY 1, November 11, Saturday

I used the Raphael healing green rays. Totally covered by very bright but soothing light. Apart from green lights, there were also purple and golden lights. Very bright. It could be this healing was also done last night in class, this time I only felt relax and comfortable in the green rays. 

While I was lighting an incense stick, there were sparkles above the incense burner which was one open palm apart.

Watched a movie required by another class, a 1983 one which definitely I won’t know and pick. Till the very end it showed copyright by a St Michael company. The movie was about a student got to explore more choices for her life after the teacher’s education instead of walking her path in the only old way she knew at the beginning. And the teacher understood that he was only to show the student possibilities but not to impose his judgement of good or bad on her or manipulate her decision. Isn’t it what a good teacher supposed to do? Show students possibilities, ready to support, then let go. After that it's all their own choices, no absolute good or bad, empowering them to be responsible for themselves and their lives. Maybe it’s also in response to my previous night's dream, that an old man asked me, "are you a teacher?" I answered, "Yes I do sometimes teach." Also reminded me of The Wound Healer that I’m currently reading. It mentioned the analyst is “as much in the analysis as the patient”, sort of meaning healing is not only on the client but also on the healer during the process.

Watched an anime. Someone said, “You should set your life on fire, not caring about whether it will lead to success or not, just burn. Reminded me of seeing a white dwarf with no eyes in meditation. He asked me what is the meaning of life. While I was thinking, felt some warmth on my left hand. I said, “Guess it should be to set life on fire. Even though in the end all got burnt away and nothing’s left, there would be no regret.”

Watched a new Japanese drama. In the first episode, a teenage boy would need to live with his elder brother he had never met in a rural village for a year. The boy found that his brother got wings on his back, as they were descendent of the mystical creature Tengu. I search on the internet, they are the protective spirits of the mountains and forests, the nature.

DAY 2, November 12, Sunday

I used the Raphael healing green rays. Feeling relax and comfortable during the process. After that, Raphael put his both hands close to my body, adding a green healing layer around me. I asked for Gabriel’s guidance. Sometimes when a question comes up in my head, the answer immediately pops up. How would I know whether that’s from my own thinking or spiritual guidance? He answered that spiritual guidance are like immediate real time reply, like flashes, while thinking takes time to process, sometimes going through steps and analysis in the mind that would be long enough to notice. If you really want to confirm, just close your eyes, ask, and feel, if you see purple light, you know that’s spiritual guidance. True, recently when there’s something flashed across my mind, I can feel that the purple light spot I saw when I closed my eyes was a confirming yes. I said actually I don’t have anything special to ask. He said then only ask when you have something you really want to ask. Or the previous questions can be asked often - what to do to better serve the Divine, and what message to pass on. I asked whether the movie I watched today is any spiritual message, then I saw a purple light spot.

Randomly picked a movie in the afternoon. It’s supposed to be the story of a folktales writer, but it's actually more about life and death. From a father’s view seeing his son’s lifetime from birth to death, his learning about life and death progress bit by bit by witnessing the death of his father, his daughter and finally that eldest son. It's really a tough lesson when it comes to facing the death of beloved ones. And I know I’m not yet ready for this. It’s just too painful.  

DAY 2, November 12, Sunday

I used the Raphael healing green rays. Feeling relax and comfortable during the process. After that, Raphael put his both hands close to my body, adding a green healing layer around me. I asked for Gabriel’s guidance. Sometimes when a question comes up in my head, the answer immediately pops up. How would I know whether that’s from my own thinking or spiritual guidance? He answered that spiritual guidance are like immediate real time reply, like flashes, while thinking takes time to process, sometimes going through steps and analysis in the mind that would be long enough to notice. If you really want to confirm, just close your eyes, ask, and feel, if you see purple light, you know that’s spiritual guidance. True, recently when there’s something flashed across my mind, I can feel that the purple light spot I saw when I closed my eyes was a confirming yes. I said actually I don’t have anything special to ask. He said then only ask when you have something you really want to ask. Or the previous questions can be asked often - what to do to better serve the Divine, and what message to pass on. I asked whether the movie I watched today is any spiritual message, then I saw a purple light spot.

Randomly picked a movie in the afternoon. It’s supposed to be the story of a folktales writer, but it's actually more about life and death. From a father’s view seeing his son’s lifetime from birth to death, his learning about life and death progress bit by bit by witnessing the death of his father, his daughter and finally that eldest son. It's really a tough lesson when it comes to facing the death of beloved ones. And I know I’m not yet ready for this. It’s just too painful.  

DAY 4, November 14, Tuesday

I asked Michael to use his sword with violet flame to cut cords. I couldn't see any cords, but when the sword with violet flame was moving near and around my body, it’s like cleansing my energy field. A sudden shivering on my left arm and my left side around abdomen area. I asked the sword with violet flame to work on those two parts. No more shivering or pain, but I felt unbalance on my left and right side of the body, kind of bended to the left side, and stiff right side of my neck. The sword with violet flame then worked on the right side of my body. Body returned to balance in the middle. Raphael put a green healing layer on my body. Suddenly felt mild pain on my right elbow so the green light focused and worked intensively on that part. Elbow pain relieved (or maybe I just forgot about the pain?) 

Uriel brought me passing through the same gate to the forest. We stopped somewhere in the middle of a circle of big trees. My back shivering and I felt some gentle breeze surrounding me. Uriel pointed at somewhere behind me with a smile and said, the air spirits got something to say. Rather than hearing words, it’s more like some breezing sound in the ears. “We are anywhere. We do not necessarily have forms. We can make water flows, fire glows, leaves singing different tunes. Formless is the most powerful.” I looked at the river on my front left. Water spirits’ voice was like jingling bells, clean and beautiful, like singing a poem in an amazing heavenly tone. “Let's flow you don't need a boat. Let's flow to a far new road. Let's flow see the views you never know. Let's flow hear the stories untold. Let's flow don't worry about where to go.” I felt drunk in the mesmerisng sound and those words were like flying around my head. Fire spirits on my left drew my attention back, showing me the fire and making a warm sensation on my hands. “I can make you warm. I can burn things down. When you can only see one side, see also the opposite at work.” A big old tree on my right spoke in a low earthly tone. “Ground is the magic word. Ground yourself as you now have roots. The more you are grounded, the more expansion of your branches and leaves. That's how the leaves can sing amazing new tunes and your enormous lights can shine to the sky.” Shaking leaves on the tree sounding various tunes. I can see my tree of light growing more and more light spots on the branches and shining bright. I felt very tired and overloaded. Uriel sang the low wooden flute tune to dismiss the nature spirits. He led me back to the gate and said, no worries while you write it down you can remember.

Read from The Wounded Healer today that “It may be important for the therapist to experience such depressive states as really “his own” – to be truly “infected”, or truly in his own inner “patient” – in order to ground authentically the healing process.” Isn’t it true that instead of being high above to “help people”, we must first face and accept our own vulnerability, and heal ourselves.

 

DAY 5, November 15, Wednesday

I asked for Gabriel’s guidance. Will I be interfering my other aspects’ life and experience if I send them love and light, and even messages? Remember all of you are connected to your soul. Whatever in any of you are connected and shared at the soul level. And you would not be able to know and meet aspects that you are not supposed to, in your words “interfere”. How about other people or beings? Would I be intervening their life and karma if I send them love and light, and even healing on them? Every one brought to you for a reason. For those you are not supposed to “intervene”, whatever you do on them would be just not working. But do remember to detach yourself after the interactions. Use violet flame, ask Michael to cut cords, Raphael to place healing protective layer on you, or anything you know or will know. You can’t afford to carry every one you met. Don’t be afraid, close your eyes, see the lights within, then you know we are with you.

Saw 10:10 again this morning at home.

Reflected on last night’s practice with Uriel. Got to be much more grounded to support ongoing practices. Also reminded me I cannot quite incorporate my learnings into use. Like last night I got so tired, but I totally forgot (or can’t relate) that in the previous night’s class on meeting other aspects, I met a giant portal who told me I can fuse into his light body to re-energise myself when I am tired. Compared with the exercise in class, that the nature spirits appeared as dwarfs, dancing slim transparent blue feminine fairies, different colour fire head little men then merged into a rainbow colour fire head little man, and little fairies with wings, I like them appeared in their more natural forms (or no form) last night. The connection and experience were more direct and authentic. Saw a few butterflies, a parrot, some squirrels, and some other different birds in the trees under the sun today.

夢 - 快餐店

夢裡，我在找餐廳吃東西。想著不如去KFC，附近也有幾間，有在商場內的，或上樓梯去到的樓上舖。我去了一家上樓梯直達的樓上舖。在櫃位買了美食地圖，四十幾元，坐在附近等。有些我後面的號碼已經有得取，我還在等，但又看見其他人的食物盤上也有美食地圖。終於到我取，盤上有一包小薯條放在紙袋內和美食地圖。年青職員男女都很有熱誠有心。她們員工吃飯，說多謝公司老闆，我看見菜式很豐富，像中式筵席的菜餚，還有大條蒸魚，像是在慶祝甚麼。鏡頭一轉，兩位男員工在後面的休息室閒談，一是本來在外面櫃位工作的青年，另一為中老年男人。青年的樣子變成中年男人，說起由最初的會計部要求轉職櫃位，因為櫃位工作才適合他，但畢竟要考慮家庭負擔，那時很難下決定。中年男說他較好，當時孩子已是大學中學小學，意思是快畢業沒那麼大負擔。外面用餐區，各枱都是公司同事，中年男同事K為了緩和氣氛和安撫大家，在用餐區來回走動，說只要把之前一晚開會說的寫下，不行便捨棄即可。我聽他連說了幾次，終於忍不位站起來順口說，這麼早放棄當失敗不是我的style。年輕同事們聽了拍掌讚好。

冥想催眠日記 2023.11.1-11

2023.11.1 Wednesday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱，Merkaba activation, chakras activation。定。上下流動源源不絕。光。每次說多謝，都更光。容許能量流動，流過，上至下經過流走，不hold on，不貪戀。流動。光。不同顏色的光。源源不絕的光。神聖白光。多謝是個magic word。回來。定。靜。安住。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。三十五分鐘。

 

2023.11.2 Thursday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation, chakras activation。上下流動。光。回來。時間到了，謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。二十分鐘。 

2023.11.3 Friday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation, chakras activation。左耳一直頻率。光。回來。時間到了，謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。十八分鐘。

2023.11.4 Saturday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。tree of light, chakras activation, merkaba activation, violet flame. Flow of energy, up and down, flowing, blending. Divine white light.光。vessel。回來。鬆。靜。空。時間到了，謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。五十分鐘。

2023.11.5 Sunday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。剛完成set up and cleanse sacred space，紫火便跳出來，好吧，便放大整整包圍著自己。脈輪梵唱。chakras activation, tree of light, Metatron cube activation。光。Divine white light shining。紫紅色的光。綠色的光。安坐。手心溫熱。頭頂和周圍的能量圍繞。安靜。鬆。光。醒。光。好光。回來。時間到了，謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。五十分鐘。

2023.11.6 Monday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。有些說話的聲音，但聽不清楚。chakras activation, tree of light, merkaba activation, violet flame。光。頭頂滿是縈繞的能量。靜。安住。回來。孔明搖著扇，微笑但肯定地說，要有耐心，慢慢來，就這樣持續做著就好。小矮人說，be playful，放輕鬆點。師父說，盡全力去耍去舞就好。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。四十二分鐘。

2023.11.7 Tuesday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。我看見的Archangels，Michael藍色，Raphael綠色，Gabriel橙色，Uriel黃色，站在四角，這天多了一個紅色的archangel。脈輪梵唱。chakras activation, tree of light, merkaba activation。tree of light延伸到更高更寬廣。光。樹枝上無數點點光。光。回來，紅色的 archangel叫我查查看他是誰，便知他給我的信息。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。四十分鐘。

2023.11.8 Wednesday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。chakras activation, tree of light, merkaba activation, violet flame。光。安住。有個女人，手上拿著一張沒填任何資料的出世紙給我看。生命本來就是甚麼都沒有。沒有身份。沒有名字。本來無一物。回來。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。三十五分鐘。

2023.11.9 Thursday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。chakras activation, merkaba activation, violet flame, tree of light。光。紫紅光，藍綠光。安住。有個坐在王座上的中老年微胖長灰白髮有鬚男人，侃侃而談他這裡有多潔淨。他前面站著一個小女孩，純真自豪地說她每天清早開始潔淨這地方。光。安住。回來。Archangel Metatron把雙手輕按在我頭頂兩側，兩隻大拇指輕擦我的眉心。謝謝。Archangels給我蓋上保護袍，Michael藍色，Raphael綠色，Gabriel深橙色，Uriel白色。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。三十分鐘。

2023.11.10 Friday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。chakras activation, merkaba activation, violet flame, tree of light。安住。光。集中在眉心輪前的立體虛空。回來。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。二十二分鐘。

2023.11.11 Saturday
進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。chakras activation, tree of light, merkaba activation, violet flame。Raphael green ray healing。光。除了綠光還有紫光和金光。好光。可能昨晚才清理完，很放鬆舒服。光。這晚好光。好放鬆。安住。回來。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。三十五分鐘。

夢 - 惺惺相惜

夢裡，有爺爺能量指示要保護天真小女孩。一人是勇猛中年男，嚴厲由始至終沒說過一句話，田中圭樣，另一人是爺爺的同輩手下中老年男，微胖但結實，西田敏行樣，好色多話，看似漫不經心，經常跟中青年女伴（即夢中我的角色，艷女樣，暗地裡在觀察進展和各人）嬉戲。兩人看似不相伯仲，但細心觀察便知心思細密的中老年男更勝一籌。原來這些都是爺爺的意思，一來保護孫女，二來讓兩人惺惺相惜。

Connecting to other Aspects of your Soul Family

一：法國青少年，不多過二十歲，白人，短啡髮，穿著啡色皮褸。他還沒有走上靈性之路。他覺得自己想要改變世界拯救世界，與其說是要面對personal karma，更多是面對cultural karma。他通常被視作反叛，憤世嫉俗，滿腔怒火，行為極端，會參與示威，甚至破壞。他的父母不明白他，但其實是愛他的，他的朋友雖然與他做著相同的行為，卻是為是好玩，所以他有時也迷失了。我可以跟他連結，傳送愛和光，和作為一個更成熟的存有提醒他的初心和其他可能性，也許是在夢裡，也許他感覺是靈光一閃。他還未準備好知道我的存在和我是誰，但他能感覺到與我的連結，他的體會為母親般的能量。

二：非常高大的巨人，看得出頭軀幹兩手兩腳，但是黃色的光。He laughed at me and said, you are so small. 他的心輪位置像打開一度門，我坐進去。他說他是portal，是多維度存有，能穿梭不同維度，當然低頻維度看不見他。他能傳送存有到不同維度，當有靈魂或存有想要被清洗或療癒，他便放他們在他的光體裡，只是之後他們往往忘記自己從何處而來，所以會去到不同的空間維度，有些人稱這作輪迴，其實都是存有自己的選擇和祈請，也有人稱他作神。我問他名字，他說就叫他portal。我問他知道有其他aspects嗎，他即時分身成無數個他，說所有你們能跟我們連結的，都是我們的aspects。他說當我累了想要re-energise，便可連結他，融入(fuse into)他的光體裡，無論是在夢裡或是任何需要時。我問能為他做甚麼。他說我能讓他知道作為人類的經驗和體會，讓他能調整清洗和療癒。

三：Lord Kuthumi看上去是男人模樣，樣子有點像舊畫裡的耶穌，頭頂有一個快速旋轉的銀白色亮光發放著的光球。走進Halls of Learning，兩旁有些單座位酸枝木椅，我走到前面一張最大可坐二至三人的坐下，心想會不會太貪心，選了張最大最寬敞的坐。老師說，你的aspect在你身旁坐著。丫，怪不得會坐這張而不是其他單坐位的椅。他是一個嬰兒天使，小小的好可愛，很少頭髮，背後一雙純白翅膀，手上拿著一個麵包專注投入地吃得津津有味，頭頂也有一個快速旋轉的銀白色亮光發放著的光球。我問他名字，他說baby bread。他說我得放下腦袋，因為內在心裡已是無所不知。I can connect him when I need to calm my mind for peace, and when I want to tame and purify my tangling thoughts. 他說他頭頂的光球是本來的能量體，嬰兒天使是他示現的form，手上拿著麵包專注吃著是為了keep him presence，而他也可以任何其他forms示現。他又指指我頭頂，我才發現我的頭頂也有一個同樣的光球，他說我需要時可連結他，但我更要多連結這能量光球。

夢 - late lunch

夢裡，我跟爸媽去到女網友J的家，裡面說不出是大還是小，因為去哪裡都要穿過多彎轉來轉去的窄長走廊。走到走廊盡頭是洗手間，以為這種舊樓的洗手間很小會是濕廁，又原來左邊有浴缸。媽在最外面廳那邊洗頭，要沖洗頭上的洗頭水泡泡，原來近外面也有一個較小的洗手間，但也有浴缸。鏡頭一轉，我走在街上，走進一幢大廈找地方吃午餐，乘電梯到一樓，走進一間日本餐廳。裡面人不多，廚師是日本人，主要吃omakase所以不用選吃甚麼。鏡頭一轉，我又走在街上，沿路看地舖餐廳想著試哪家好。差不多下午二時，我跟妹走上那大廈，本來想去上次的日本餐廳，這天裡面坐了不少人，還有些外國人，雖然沒坐滿，男侍應說只招待預先特別要求，我想是要訂位的意思吧，他們小店，準備的餐點有限，多是根據訂位人數，這天多客人，又已經差不多二時接近午市完，準備好的材料應該用得差不多了吧。我們看看同層還有甚麼餐廳，這裡格局像工業大廈，又像舊式商場，在走廊轉來轉去才到不同範圍。想起這裡應有家印度餐廳，恒河咖喱屋甚麼的，我們去到一家餐廳門外，圓枱和櫈都放門外，有點掉色的霓虹燈牌看不清餐廳名稱，我們看看手上的單張比對，應該就是這家。不少午餐配搭選擇，有些有牛的我就不選了，結果妹點雞我點魚，女侍應提醒比餐牌和單張上加了價，上次溫暖人間來吃過，說他們這麼大碟又多甜椒配菜，賣得太便宜，又有人看了推介來吃，所以加了價。飯先來，我們吃著，再來咖喱各一大碟，半碟是甜椒絲配菜，妹很快便說飽，我想起她剛才坐下也戴回口罩，又看見她的肚子很脹。她點了可樂，喝不下可帶走，女侍應說她們的可樂𣎴是一般的，我點了plain lassi。來的可樂是一小杯。我的plain lassi飲管喝不到，我便轉用匙從碗裡舀著吃，原來裡面有很多帶皮去骨雞中翼，怪不得飲管吸不了，滑滑的幾好吃。

夢 - 研習/睡好

夢裡，我在研究和練習，設intention便能去任何地方。我自己能成功，但我實驗時都是比較簡單直接的去買野菜或郊外。同事知道了，想試在工作上使用實行，我便告訴他們方法。他們試著，但不順。我又研究他們的作法和怎樣讓更多人都能做到。男壇友艾迪和一個小女孩也在看著，狀甚感興趣，艾迪在思考沒說任何話。起來上洗手間，七時四十幾分，睡回。夢裡，我在公司，繼續忙東忙西，走來走去。男上司挽著折合大床褥，放進櫃內，讓大家可好好睡。大家累了便進櫃裡，關上櫃門睡，櫃內空間剛好夠放打開的大床褥，床褥還可升起上半讓人靠著坐起。櫃內有不同格各自有門，大家各自有自己的一格，戴上眼罩睡至想要起來，大家起來時都精神飽足愉快。鏡頭一轉，在室外，遇見其他部門的同事，我跟建築學院的女同事S說起她們剛有收到捐款做項目真好，有個小男孩坐在七人車還是客貨車車廂裡，我們邊照顧他邊談起那項目，是在偏遠地區起學校的，很有意思，大家都喜歡在做的工作。鏡頭一轉，回到室內，辦公室放了一張大小和樣子都像白色按摩床的，我試睡在上面，換不同姿勢，都頗舒服，承托力也不錯。同事看見我俯下頭垂下躺著，有點擔心但又不敢前來打擾慰問。我前面的牆上有電腦，我伸長手按著，螢幕投射在牆上大家都看到。我看見內聯網多了功能，例如提醒未完成的工作清單，看似不錯，但仔細看，長長的清單，原來不懂更新發還其他部門跟進後已完成的，要這邊手動更新才能顯示正確進度，即是沒用不用理，不過又是做做樣子東西。大家又在內聯網看，原來有火鍋推薦地點，正想著大家要不要去哪家吃吃。這時校長派人來說要找四人火鍋的地點，我在一旁看著大家亂成一團在找，心想其實就在剛剛在看的給他訂位便行。

夢 - teach

從深沉睡眠中轉半醒，閉著眼，全身感覺怪怪的，尤其如平常打開平放兩側的雙手，特別沉重又麻痺，好一會，仍是如此。繼續閉著眼，再睡去。夢裡，我跟男友人F和妹一起走出舊商場，去找地方吃飯。有女生送了一大盒禮物給F，他拆開是飾物，都是由不同深淺黃色水晶石頭組成，一件主要的最大，他戴在頭上，左邊垂下一大串，耳邊又垂下較小的一串像耳環，到頸項是個銀圈掛著前胸一個立體半球圓形吊咀，誇張但有趣，他繼續戴著走路，盒內還有其他散件耳環可任意配搭。我們跟著前面的人走，去到露天地盤工地，地上都是沙石，路崎嶇危險，不像有餐廳。去到像懸崖邊的大石地，前無去路，我們正想原路走回去，一個穿恤衫西褲皮鞋的中老年瘦削男人走過來，嚴厲地說中文叫F拿出證件檢查，F取出身份證大小的證件，遞給他看。他看完交回F時還厲他一眼。他走過來我處，我為免麻煩，已即時取出證件，從證件套中取出大小如身份證但上面像有個大紅色花朵圖案的，雙手遞給他看。他對我的態度溫和得多，微笑著用英語問我，Are you a teacher。我微笑著故作鎮定回答説，I do sometimes teach，心想這樣也不算說謊，只想盡快安全離開。他只隨便看了看便把證件交回給我，客氣尊重地送我們走。

Message from Archangel Gabriel

Everyone has a role to play, a purpose. 

Do not afraid to be yourself. 

It's only when you can be yourself, 

you can feel the Divine's love, compassion and light, 

and be real presence.

夢 - 個案夢工作/土地壇

夢裡，我在工作，在跟個案。每個案主各自在一間房裡，我從天花板向下觀察個案在房間裡的behaviour，以assess效果和考慮調整。有同事覺得不必，其他人不明白，這是我的工作方式以密切關注跟進。起來上洗手間，六時，睡回。夢裡，我早上提早回到公司，在一間小會議室上課，時間太早有點累，但為了上課也值得。大家只聽見聲音，我本來不打算特別談，但聽見同學分享在夢裡工作，我聽了也詳細說了我如何在夢裡工作。我說完以後，沒有了聲音，以乎斷了線。到重新有聲音，已是下課，同學們都交了工作紙，我急著完成也想交回工作紙。一位年長男老夥計來到會議室，態度友善，給我用小茶壼沖中國茶。我走到外面辦公室大廳，在土地壇前上香。鏡頭一轉，有些同學在找我們中心，卻去了另一個分中心，其他同事見了同學們覺得麻煩，每次來都多多要求。鏡頭一轉，我走進地面的地鐡站裡，入閘後站的中間有一個土地壇，旁邊還有一張白色大梳化，是賣菜的地方。我走到站外，有人送了菜來在等人來收菜。我幫忙收了三棵西蘭花苗和三棵椰菜花苗，放進白色膠袋。賣菜的青年從站內走出來收菜，我便入閘回到站內中間的土地壇上香。

夢 - 讀懂無字白書

夢裡，收到通知說上課前要看兩條影片，但要自己找來看，傳來的連結，頁面只有簡介，下面幾個手掌心大的正方格，全白沒字，我看了卻已經大概知道內容。女Admin兼導師A和C補充說，也不是一定要看。我見有興趣，便打算自己在網上找。

夢 - 自行我路

夢裡，我在辦公室工作，要帶同事到同一大樓的活動場地。第二次，我又要帶一個新男同事去活動場地，但今次要走遠些，我跟大家說落去swire。我們走出辦公室，向下走，再乘電梯下去。前面很多人，但都乘之前的電梯下去了，現在打開門的電梯裡只有一個人在裡面。電梯門在關上，我用行李篋擋住門，門再打開，我跟同事才能走進去。去到場地，我們要到房裡靠牆站著，我在房裡站著的時候，變成一絲不掛，但其他同事都有穿衣服，我和同事們都見怪不怪，知道也接受我就是會跟自己的做法，即使大家在做同一件事，也會依照自己跟別人不一樣的做法。很快便順利完成。我們走出房間，由於比預期快而多出了空閒時間，我便出去找地方吃飯。

夢 - 躲避人inner child

夢裡，我在一幢大樓裡，這層有一間大排練室，旁邊一間較小的休息室。中年男導師找我來拉低音大提琴，我在門外看進去排練室，看見有一位外籍中年男人在拉低音大提琴，既然已經有人了，我在猶豫著還要不要進去。我還是走了進去，有好多份樂譜，都是不長的曲，一份份一首首夾好，我把樂譜攤在地上掀著看，多是新作的流行曲調，本來我學的都是古典樂曲，但又覺得也可試試，覺得是能應付到的程度。鏡頭一轉，有個小女孩走進來，她像在盡力避開其他人，甚至躲進櫃裡。我走到她身邊，大家對望會心微笑，一起避開其他人，逃到隔壁沒人的小休息室。過程中心情由覺得煩擾想避開，變成佻皮好玩，像在玩遊戲，互相為伴步伐動作也輕鬆起來。鏡頭一轉，我變成那小女孩，在盡力躲避著其他人。鏡頭一轉，我和女同事L在走廊，我們極力避開其他人，想去洗手間。我們從門外看進排練室，成人合唱團在練習，站在最後排角落的女同事C好像有看到我們。我們打算趁休息室無人，進去用洗手間。我把耳貼在休息室門外，聽見裡面有打麻雀聲，只好在門外等，盤算者對策。男導師暗地在關注照顧著我們，他知道其實裡面沒人，但又不好告訴我們，因為既然我們極力避開所有人，即是我們不想有任何人看見和打擾。

夢 - 個案工作

夢裡，我在工作，很多個案，得逐個個別仔細地考慮處理方案，而且都是較複雜和長的。感覺做得很上手，都是我能力做得來的，而且愈做愈有興趣躦研和試驗方案。之後還要跟上級仔細滙報，這是讓我覺得有點麻煩的部份，反而想把這些時間都做個案。起來上洗手間，六時多。睡回，又回到那個夢，繼續工作，繼續研究個案。

冥想催眠日記 2023.10.22-31 Dialogue with Higher Self

2023.10.22 Sunday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。又有看見其他merkaba，大家各不相干，穩定地各自修行。回來。

connect with higher self。還是沒甚麼好問的。丫，compassion，怎樣既compassionate又不會被濫用？

compassion與boundary並不相違。compassion是你看到事實，完整看到別人的不同面向，心生體諒明瞭，而不對對方所言所行生情緒，這是對別人同時對自己compassionate。當你對人生起情緒，即同時讓著方拉走你的能量，也讓對方的能量加諸你身上。至於之後的行動，完全由你自己決定，compassion與做甚麼或不做甚麼無關。

如何達到innate harmony呢？

同樣地，看到事實，自然不起情緒，就是innate harmony。

Healing呢，這該是各人自己的事，我不覺得我能干涉別人的生命。你不必療癒別人，那的確是別人的選擇。你只需為別人點亮一點火苗，種下一顆種子，讓人看到他們從不知道的可能性，之後便是他們自己的選擇了。

Unconditional love呢？

當你能夠愛一個人或物，同時完整看清這人或物的全部面向，而不單是投射，你便能同樣地愛其他人和物，這就是unconditional love。只要你能完整看清其他人和物的全部面向，而不單是投射或片面。

既然伴侶之間的吸引力不過是anima和animus的投射，還需要伴侶嗎？

當你能看清投射，如是地看見他/她，要伴侶或不要，只是個人選擇。

我有甚麼要做的呢？

如之前指出的三個夢所示。第一，假如有人找你argue，你先停下來，看清事實，不起情緒。

即是ignore即可嗎？

不，ignore是築起一幅牆，那不能起任何幫助。然後你如是地看那人，看到他們所不知道的，再以他們那不知道的方式應對。人們總是以他們只知道的單一方式表現。如第一個夢所示，你不能只用說的，你得demonstrate其他可能性，用你自己做給他們看。你只需展示可能性，之後對方如何是他自己的事。第二，療癒於內在發生，即使人們不明白底蘊。如第二個夢所示，你將發展並教導一些方法，人們也許只以為好玩，做著做著內在療癒同步不知不覺發生。第三，如第三個夢所示，治療師各自工作，各有所長，你將從中協調，讓他們合作達到更大的成果。

回來。時間差不多，我抱著八仔謝謝各位，變成金光出木門。出來。四十六分鐘。

2023.10.23 Monday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。回來。鬆。空。靜。回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。三十分鐘。

2023.10.24 Tuesday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。這次又多了一位跟我們一起進來。諸葛孔明，頭上那帽，手上那扇，很明顯，竟是金城武的樣子。我也尊稱對方為師父。師父在大梳化坐下，溫文爾雅，微笑著。八仔走過去碰他，我叫八仔回來，別打擾師父。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。回來。空。靜。光。回來。這樣就很好。謝謝各位，我抱著八仔變成金光出木門。三十五分鐘。

2023.10.25 Wednesday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。Merkaba邊轉邊充滿白光。回來。鬆。靜。空。有個男人拿著一個大口壼，笑著說埃及甚麼，邊喝掉壼裡的黑色液體。回來。空。黑。光。回來。我們謝謝各位，變成金光出木門。三十五分鐘。

2023.10.26 Thursday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。回來。空。靜。鬆。光。回來。光。回來。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。二十五分鐘。

2023.10.27 Friday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單座位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。回來。靜。空。回來。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。十五分鐘。

2023.10.28 Saturday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。回來。空。靜。鬆。飛走了。回來。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。三十分鐘。

2023.10.29 Sunday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。主要是紫和綠光。回來。靜。空。鬆。回來。謝謝各位，我們變成金光出木門。二十分鐘。

2023.10.30 Monday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。金光。定。有些畫面。一家老少。回來。空。光。回來。時間到了，我們變成金光出木門。二十五分鐘。

2023.10.31 Tuesday

進門，從金光變回我抱著八仔。我們到單坐位梳化坐下。脈輪梵唱。Merkaba activation。chakras activation。安住。光。靜。黑。光。容許能量從上而下自然流過流走。回來。謝謝各位。我們變成金光出木門。四十四分鐘。

夢 - 個案處理

夢裡，我的工作是處理個案，得密切近距離跟進，也得多重考慮才下決定，當中有些安排給我的個案是刻意的考驗。醒來，七時，上洗手間。睡回。回到那夢，繼續工作，這次是看著電腦屏幕，同事在處理三個batch，一條單獨一次，一條月捐，三條月捐，其中三條月捐的batch要求即時出收據。我心裡有數，可以重新入機便可即出收據，但我沒說，想先讓同事自己想想方法。

夢 - 甜美一家

夢裡，我完成工作，也是同事來問，我解答，一切順利，便去商場裡的餐廳吃飯。第二天，想不如試商場裡的其他餐廳，但看見男演員陳豪的太太和子女，又好奇，便又去了同一家。她們像跟餐廳很熟，我記得昨天也看見他們，似乎是陳的生日，他跟太太恩愛地吃飯，餐廳拿出一束花給他。這天，他的太太和一子一女和一女友人來到，她們忙著跟餐廳一起打點安排。陳後來，他兒子拿出預先準備的一束花送給他，這天還有蛋糕，似乎連續兩天都在為他慶生。看他們一家和洽樂也融融，幸福快樂，是很美的畫面。他笑著問，是一次過訂的花會較便宜嗎，太太笑著說是，他明顯對太太和家人的心思和安排很喜悅。

夢 - 日常指導

夢裡，我在協助工作事宜，主要還是講解和給意見。前面有兩個盤，我指著左邊的一個，說經這個收捐款，便知道意願，下次可作參考，又指著右邊那另一個，說這個就追查不到。有個男人，也在問問題，請我提議處理辦法。

Power Animals Garden

課堂開始前，大家在線上閒聊著，老師跟同學的狗狗都跑進來了，老師笑說，他們知道他們今天有份。我的右眼角瞥見你也回來了。我轉頭看過去，卻看不見了，也沒法子，畢竟你已沒有身體。感覺你回來了我還是很高興。我知道，你的到來和離去，都是為我好。你來讓我體驗滿滿的愛和被愛，原來我也能無條件的愛。你走要我向前邁進，不能再賴著你不動。要不是為你建立內在房間，讓我們每天團聚，便不會有這一年來的內在體驗和夢日記。

花園今天的顏色比上次更豐富燦爛。那片大草地裡的大樹，不就是我們有陣子常去坐坐躺躺的茂密大樹嗎，感覺好溫暖親切。走進裡面的草地河畔，也像我們去過的地方，只是更恬靜安定。坐在河畔，流水在我的左邊，一隻青蛙出現在我右邊，看著我。後來前面還來了一條蜥蜴，前右方是一尾蛻皮中的白蛇。還真是意想不到。甚麼意思呢。三者像是同類，身上有像鱗片的立體紋理。只是不清楚不認識不想接觸才會怕，願意近看知道了，便會發現不過如此，沒甚麼好怕的。青蛙呢。他給我看是兩棲，適應力，對環境的應變和適應力可好好運用。蜥蜴呢。他給我看斷了的尾巴再生，生命力，再生。白蛇，那個蛻了一半的皮太明顯是蛻變了吧。又回到青蛙，他提醒本來是蝌蚪的模樣，成長可以很大變化呢。蜥蜴，有時必需失去原有的，才得新生。白蛇，往往得捨棄原來的 comfort zone，才能成長得更強大，剝落原來的框框，才有更大成長的空間。他們說，來到這裡召喚，自會出來最能幫忙的，不必每次都是他們。臨走，八仔來坐到我身上抱著我，我知道呢，你永遠是大佬，跟我最親近，無可替代。那時我叫你做我的守護靈，你真的有做到，我也總算能安心地向前走了。除了彩虹橋彼岸的家，你現在還是這power animals garden的大佬，繼續守護我愛我幫助我。愛你，好愛好愛好愛你。

老師說那三者給她最強的感覺是生命力。課堂後，浮現這一句：Don’t be afraid of your power.

夢 - 天曲妙韻

臨睡前躺在床上，左耳邊聽見頻率，即時放鬆沉入深層睡眠。夢裡，聽見悅耳聲音，轉半夢半醒，聽著美妙音樂，此曲只應天上有。第三眼前至頭頂有光，是紫色的光，頭頂有搔著的在流動的感覺，又像有能量從頭頂進入身體，身體裡能量在流轉流動，由腳底流走。雙手能量更重更強在微微擺動，集中注意身體各處，感覺奇妙。打開眼，回來，一時多。

夢 - 中心

夢裡，我第一次去一個地舖中心，裡面有課室，也有些公用地方給大家坐坐談談。那天沒有課，但我聽有些年青女人說起她們在上的一些課，也覺得有興趣。第二天再過來，在櫃位向中年女職員查詢中途加入課程，她們很歡迎。看見中年男同事L，他在近門口，我在裡面跟朋友坐坐談談，所以他沒有看見我。本來差不多離去，但看見他們近門口的幾位在唱卡啦OK，下一首到他唱，因為他平日比較沉靜少話，我有點好奇，便留下想聽，那是一首英文歌，我見整頁歌詞，卻沒聽到他唱。又另一天，在中心大家又遇見，本來各自跟朋友在談，變成大家聚成一堆在喝酒。離去時，他醉了卻已是晚上過了尾班車時間，我只好扶他回家。第二天早上，他酒醒回家換衣服才去上班，我在門口送他出門，看見他穿著橙色短褲，便問他昨晚不是穿淺灰色長西褲嗎，他邊給我看邊笑著說不過是把褲腳摺了上去所以看上去像短褲而已。又一天，我們又在中心遇見，大家沒有尷尬，但顯得比之前熟絡了。